NEW insight level achieved! Resentment towards women = EGO

Basically, a part of me, like most men, is a little dependent on women to feel special and loved and valuable. Community doctrine doesn’t help because now you place labels on it, so every “failure” is now “evidence” of your lack of “high value”. 

So, acceptance is the very first step. I accept that I am STILL dependent on women’s validation. It’s not that I feel like total shit without it, but im after that little “extra” so to speak. At the same time, I feel 120 percent entitled to it ALL, so when I don’t get what I want or my ego is challenged I get mad and lash out.

Solution? Care less. Be MORE reckless. Take MORE risks. Step it up a few notches. Be MORE honest. STOP trying to control everything and stop caring who wins and loses, because YOU cannot lose. Do things from a place of not needing to be acknowledged! Excecute from a place of honest expression. You can’t lose. Not if you take massive action and don’t care what happens. Let go. 

Lol this sounds like Fight Club.