Change your location if you feel stuck

Recently I moved out from my parents house. I was a big change for me, not only because I looked forward to it for so long. It also inspired a change in my personality.

I heard once in an audiobook that certain behaviors are linked to places or people. It’s so true. For me it was my home. Every time I spent time at home my old self came up again, just a little bit. This changed since I have my own apartment. There is this sense of presence. Feels fucking dope.
I do meditation. Most of the time with Eckhart Tolle or some sort of vipassana meditation where you just focus on your breath. This didn’t work that good in the past. I felt present when I did it, but it was gone after some time. Now it’s lasting. It’s like I’m walking around and I am still in sort of a meditative state. It’s like an inner change and a new habit that finally got a place to grow.

Approaching is almost in auto mode. When I hesitate I do it anyways even when it's just to no let me down. As a chronic perfectionist this is huge for me. Previously it had to be prefect and I stressed myself out instead of just do it. Jeez it even took me a while to write this. Nevertheless my approaches started to become very good. It feels like the first time I did it as I had no idea what to do or what to say. It’s this free feeling what is fucking fantastic.