Anyone else have a problem with ''Authority''
Can't handle that shit.
Ever since i first figured out that my teacher had some sort of ''power'' over me in probably first or 2nd grade, i've wanted to rip his face off.
I have the same problem today. 0 respect for authority.
I don't mind that someone has authority over others... i don't mind somoene being a ''leader'' for me in certain aspects.
...but when they use the ''authority'' part where it's like ''Do it, not because you want to, or i'm making you want to, but because i said so!''..
That's when i fucking lose it and get fired from jobs or suspended at school.
It's not an ego issue either, i just cannot handle that shit.
I think it's actually a good thing long-term, just fucks you up short-term
Yeah, I mean idk if it's bad or good in and of itself..
It just sounds like it's compulsive which is the only part I'd even be concerned with. Anything you can't control is an issue - but yeah i mean it's cool to not like authority, just it's not cool to not be able to control how you react, especially if it's negatively impacting your life or you feel out of control
Yeah that's pathological, power and control given away to instinct. Want to work on that, schmoogies
I go in and I'm crisp, clean and my vocals are fucking coming out like music. - Anonymous MW student
- Autismus Terminus Finis (Root Cause/Cure of Autism Epidemic)
- Called Off My Wedding & Other Turn Tail Signs Of The American Male
Yeah, I was the same way even back in daycare lol. I remember in 3rd grade i swore at my teacher in the middle of the class and lost it so they had to call my parents to come pick me up from school.
Ha! That's interesting Leadscout. How'd that change?
I go in and I'm crisp, clean and my vocals are fucking coming out like music. - Anonymous MW student
- Autismus Terminus Finis (Root Cause/Cure of Autism Epidemic)
- Called Off My Wedding & Other Turn Tail Signs Of The American Male
Yeah, I was the same way even back in daycare lol. I remember in 3rd grade i swore at my teacher in the middle of the class and lost it so they had to call my parents to come pick me up from school.
What u do about it?
Yep. My friend and I got jumped by like 12 guys once because one of them tried to leverage the fact they were there with friends to try to get me to apologize/plead with them. Thought the guy was a total bitch and didn't respect him so I didn't budge and then I got jumped. Was actually really fun cause they were hipsters and I had a lot of unresolved anger issues back then. It was like those kung fu movies they didn't all attack me at once for some reason and they were pretty terrible fighters, the one who punched me in the face first wound up with a broken nose before it all got scatered away.
In the past when people have come from that frame I have had the same response it's like this gut level fuck you reaction. Today I think I would just be more chilled out but it hasn't happened to me in so long since I've let go of all that anger and don't drink like I used to.
^ Good.
I go in and I'm crisp, clean and my vocals are fucking coming out like music. - Anonymous MW student
- Autismus Terminus Finis (Root Cause/Cure of Autism Epidemic)
- Called Off My Wedding & Other Turn Tail Signs Of The American Male
Mindfulness training is the only real way to address this kinda stuff, in my opinnion. if you go to therapy, they might address it in a variety of ways, but if you're just doing it on your own - being unrelenting with yourself in your mindfulness training is the only way I've found to address compulsions.
The way I'd describe what I've done is I almost like "brainwashed" myself a bit - like I'm just so aware of certain 'triggers" that when they arise, I'm like insanely aware of them, and just breathe and they flow through me and out and then it's all good. It's kinda like creating an "Invisible Forcefield' for yourself.
I can Guareentie you that it works. If you are relentless with it, you will 100% learn to be okay with just being in the midst of all that anger and rage, and over time some of that will even just go away so the anger//rage will actually feel much less intense and possibly go away entirely. But it's tough, and if you don't really care that much about workin' on this kinda thing, nothing will change because it takes serious dedication... but yeah, there could be other ways of addressing it but this is what I've done and I've been very successful at addressing this kinda thing in myself.
It's interesnttig too, cause then after you address these larger, potentially life-harming compulsions (stuff that migth get you fired unexpectedly or suspended from school etc.) you start to notice smaller, very subtle stuff alogn the same lines. You just keep going deeper with mindfulness as you gain more awareness.
such a great post potted. i'd click +ses sensless on that but you can give only one. ;]
Yup, meditation and avoiding bullshit food did the trick for me.When I was a kid all I ate was junk food. I also made a conscious decision not to act up because I felt guilt afterwards.
For some reason taking MACA capsules gets me into that irritated state and I can get pissed off easily to the point that I stopped taking them.
My father is one of the rare people that know how to piss me off nowdays... but I'm getting better at observing my emotions... and most of the time I just ignore something that would piss me off.
My younger brother on the other hand is having problems controling his anger... I mentioned meditation and Tolle to him but he's not interested.
oh yeah - parents are a big one. Notice what upsets you about your parents - sometiems it can be very very interesting.
Yes as men we must be able to experience these situations in their fullness while still being able to act and communicate thru the midst of them. Otherwise we simply handicap ourselves when the going gets shitty. But if nothing else, attempting to limit the breadth of our human experience is just stupid. And wrong
I go in and I'm crisp, clean and my vocals are fucking coming out like music. - Anonymous MW student
- Autismus Terminus Finis (Root Cause/Cure of Autism Epidemic)
- Called Off My Wedding & Other Turn Tail Signs Of The American Male