BuddhaGames' Field Reports 2013
I don't go out that much right now, basically just doin 2-3 nights a week, sometimes only one night, but right now that's all I can handle, I have much more important stuff going on in my life. That being said, I wanted to start up a journal and focus it on gneral life stuff. I mean, also, I'm at a point with all the "game" stuff, where even only going out one or two nights a week, I'm still getting at least 1-2 new dates a week, have 4 stable fuckbuddies, and I'm fucking a new girl every 1-2 weeks
This is going to be less of a strictly, "Pickup-Focusd" journal, and more of just a general journal of my life, and how my life is naturally condusive to me meeting, banging and dating cool, hot women, while mantaining my main focus on the more important aspects of my life, and an unwaivering level of self respect.
It's also going to be a journal that shows how I create an ENTIRELY NEW lifestyle for myself, becuase I will be moving to a new city in the next couple weeks, where I literally know NOBODY, have ZERO connections and don't know a single thing about the nightlife, or social scene, period.
I'm SO PUMPED for this next year, guys. I have so much going on in my life and so much potential that is being fullfilled I'm in the best place I've ever been, in my entire life. It's really remarkable for me, and I'm just constantly inundated with gratitude.
Anyway - guess I'll start my field reports tonight, if I go out.
-PEACE
looking forward to this journal buddha, i'll be moving to a new city in a few months where i'll be in exactly the same situation as you so am very excited to see how you handle it and hopefully i'll be able to learn a thing or 2 as well.
Awesome Gorilla, that's really cool to hear. Keep up with my journal, and start your own - I'll keep tabs.
So yeah, this journal is about me sharing my LIFESTYLE with you guys. I want to show the pickup community what it's like to be "normal" and have healthy relationships with women and to have guy friends that you go out with, and that it's not ENTIRELY about women, but that it can still be a FUN and engaging part of your life.
Also - this journal is about me, basically removing myself from the "pickup community" but I want to still be involved, becuase I think that there are some amazing things that the community can take away from a guy like me. This journal is a place for me to flesh out my relationship with myself and how that translates itself to my relationship with men and women.
Some major areas of thouht for me recently:
1. Control
2. Power
3. Ego
4. Vulnerability
How do all of those relate?
I've noticed, for me, that there is this looping pattern that occurs, and it's the followin:
1. Don't try, very chill, let things happen, care about letting the girl have a blast by simply being my natural awesome charastmatic self
2. Develop connection//chemistry naturally - girl is SUPER into me
3. Start to feel scarcity, not about the girl but about the CONNECTION - I've been in the "game" and so consumed by it, that i actually forgot what it's like to feel connectoin, so it has become a "scarce" thing for me, so I feel anxiety and "one-itis" but focused arond the chemistry, rather than the girl
4. Respond by feeling the need to control the situation, ego flareups and as a result - resort to 'gaming" the girl and losing the connection that existed in the first place, becuase I was afriad of not having control over the connecion that was developed
-This 4th step, results in the chemistry going away, and once again becoming scarce - so the loop beings all over again with the next girl
Thought this is an interesting pattern that I want to flesh out a lil more
Year of the Buddha
Met up with the colombian on Friday night, but my ]boys set me straight and basically were like, "Yo this chick is whack, you're trippin for nothing, fuck this girl, lets do somethin else" - so I'm not texting her anymore. Shes young, dumb and just lookin for fun, which I can give but she's a virgin and leaves in a week, so not wroth my time.
Ended up hittin up williamsburg but it wasn't a girl night. Just kicked it.
THen yesterday, I ended up having a boozy brunch with a bunch of my homies from school. Haven't seen a lot of these guys in forever, so it was awesome. Afterwards, we picked up a bottle of tequila and went back to one of the guys' place and drank and smoked weed out of this thing caled a "Volcano" - holy sihtballs.
Anyway- they wanted to give me a proper send-off so we had a day- it was awesome. Seriously, it was fucking great to have one last blowout with the fellas. Then went and saw Elisium, which was not nearly as good as I thought it would be.
Yeah elysium doesn't look that good. Going to see wolverine today for sure
I go in and I'm crisp, clean and my vocals are fucking coming out like music. - Anonymous MW student
- Autismus Terminus Finis (Root Cause/Cure of Autism Epidemic)
- Called Off My Wedding & Other Turn Tail Signs Of The American Male
Well fuck, I'm in the zone right now. Got two weeks before launch and I'm locked in. Staying at work late, taking work from other people to make this shit happen, on time, and the way it needs to happen. If I do this right, I'll be making a fuckton of money and doing very little work within a year, so I'm aiming to kill this.
Girl from Sunday hit me up to hang out but I had to flake
This girl Robyn hit me up for a drink, but I had to turn that done
My fuckbuddy gets back tomorrow, so I'll probably see her once or twice before I leave
So yeah, I'm basically just locked in right now, fucking owning shit.
24 hour work days till we launch. So fucking amped on this right now. It's happening.
Not gonna lie, change is scary as fuck and it's really really sad to be leaving the place I've called home for the last 5 years.
BUT HOLY SHIT AM I FUCKING EXCITED. I'M ABOUT TO TEAR THE LID OFF OF DC.
Like seriously. In every way possible, I want this next year to fucking just rock. I want to grow as a person so badly this year. I want to push myself and discover new things about myself, that I don't even know exist right now.
Change is such an incredible opportunity to grow as a person, and I fully intend on using this experience for that purpose. I want this. I want to maximize my time on this planet and be the best person I can be. I want it so badly.
Sounds like you are moving around my way, D.C. I'll try to keep some lids on for you to pop open. Feel free to hit me up when you get down here.
-OOzz
Props mann. Props.
Well fuck, I'm in the zone right now. Got two weeks before launch and I'm locked in. Staying at work late, taking work from other people to make this shit happen, on time, and the way it needs to happen. If I do this right, I'll be making a fuckton of money and doing very little work within a year, so I'm aiming to kill this.Girl from Sunday hit me up to hang out but I had to flake
This girl Robyn hit me up for a drink, but I had to turn that done
My fuckbuddy gets back tomorrow, so I'll probably see her once or twice before I leave
So yeah, I'm basically just locked in right now, fucking owning shit.
24 hour work days till we launch. So fucking amped on this right now. It's happening.
Not gonna lie, change is scary as fuck and it's really really sad to be leaving the place I've called home for the last 5 years.
BUT HOLY SHIT AM I FUCKING EXCITED. I'M ABOUT TO TEAR THE LID OFF OF DC.
Like seriously. In every way possible, I want this next year to fucking just rock. I want to grow as a person so badly this year. I want to push myself and discover new things about myself, that I don't even know exist right now.
Change is such an incredible opportunity to grow as a person, and I fully intend on using this experience for that purpose. I want this. I want to maximize my time on this planet and be the best person I can be. I want it so badly.