crazy dream

I basically got a bunch of people hyped up to kill a bunch of other people- without thinking it would go that far, then by the time the battle started, it was too late and everyone was way too pumped up and excited about killing the other people and fighting for my "cause" and I couldn't stop anyone

When the fighting started- I shot at one person, and injured him (but don't think I killed him) and then immediately laid down my weapon and decided that I was either going to die with no weapon or I was going to convince everyone else to stop because they saw their leader had laid down his weapon..so I tried to stop the fight and was able to do so but not until way more people were killed than was necessary.

Afterwards, the battle was all over the news and because I was the leader of the whole thing- I was called up to give an explanation of what happened and what my role was before I was put on trial for whether I committed murder or not. I told everyone that I thought what happened was wrong but that I never thought it would go as far as it did and that I laid down my weapon as soon as the fighting started and did not kill anyone.

I had to go to jail to await my sentencing and, in the dream, I guess I had previously been a guard- so I was scared shitless that I was going to be exposed and killed by the other prisoners, so I decided to create this whole thing up about how there was another dead guard, so that I could take the attention away from myself and create this story of the other guard who died and build a bond with the other prisoners around killing this other guy, so that while I was there I wouldn't be killed.

Fucking scumbag brain- when you wake up and think you're awake but the dream keeps going and you have to wake up a "2nd time" to get out of it. lol jesus and one of my worst fears is being falsely imprisoned

I never found out whether or not I was guilty...