THE DEATHSERCISE

I've wanted to share this exercise for a while now with other people. i figure this is a great place to do so.

WARNING: if you find this too frightening to try, too intimidating, or just not interested then that's fine. this might scare the living shit out of you (it did for me) but hey, it cant really hurt. i did not make this exercise up. you won't die from it. muahaha

The exercise is simple but i'll lay out a little ground work...

there are birthing practices, driving practices, (not really sex practices unfortunately wer'e not emotionally prepared) so why not death practice?

we all die. it's a core fear for just about everyone. social rejection and female rejection is a fear of death in a way. AA is the fear of being cast out by someone which could lead to death in the tribal days...or maybe being killed by someone bigger, for hitting on a prized babe.

people know from experience, it's been documented that death happens in stages. 

initially your hearing shuts down and then sight shuts down, your body then shuts down and it's been reported that you can still be present within the body before youve fully "departed" so to speak. im sure theres 7 billion ways to die, so dont get too attached to this.

LISTEN: if someone threw you out of an airplane with a parachute it would be terrifying. horrific. awful. dangerous. frightening. panic inducing etc.

BUT....if you took the proper training on HOW to use a parachute, how to skydive, when to open the parachute, etc. you would be emotionally and mentally prepared. then it could be the ride of a lifetime. 

Death could be just like this....a nightmare if youre physically and mentally unprepared....OR a relaxing, exciting, drifting off, into the unknown. What could be more natural...every living thing has done it. 

you don't want it to hang over your head like the elephant in the room too afraid to poke it. that aint manly nor is it wise. it comes fast. when death comes your whole life feels like it was about 3 minutes.

regardless of where you go after your dead, its the initial steps that im referring to. one thing is that you wont have your brain so you can assume memories will be lost, any drugs taken will instantly cease, in a way theres nothing to fear because there will be no "you" to fear it. 

remember that the only curse would be to live forever. the suffering would be unimaginable.

part of becomeing a man is being comfortable alone. fully alone. you come in alone. you die alone. even with a room full of people to support you only you will be taking that step. how alone would that feel?

now once you find that you can no longer move the body. youre in a transitional state. thats when the panic can set in...IF you are not comfortable with that level of aloness.

now personally i believe that if panic sets in thats going to be very uncomfortable for a little while. fear will probably be there. but if you expect this its less frightening. it wont come as some awful surprise that youre still there after physical death.

THE DEATHERISE

1. take at least four hours to do this exercise. if you fail try extending the time by a little bit the next time. 3 hours you can do it but not as effectively.

2. get comfortable, preferably lie down...but at a time you know you are more likely to stay awake...you might fall asleep eventually thats fine but try not to.

3.start to relax the body you are now on your deathbed

4. death is actually a process. you can't go zero to dead. so slowly shut down your systems...sight....hearing...feeling...mind

4. feel the unknown that you will be stepping into

5. die

thats basically it. you can do it as many times as you want. you cant really actually die doing this. maybe if youre discipline was supernatural but i think you would just pass out.

now what you feel come up will be similar to what actually will come up when you die for real. theres really no wrong way to do this. no wrong conclusions etc.

WHAT I LEARNED

i was really surprisesd as i have been so death terrified my whole life. so worried about regrets i might have and the fear of letting go.

what happened was out of left field for me...i felt relaxed, tuned into the moment, a little bit sentimental, but really not at all concerned with anything in the past. not friends, not family, not relationships. it became simple. there was no intense emotions or really caring about trivial things just simple truth. i felt love for a stranger as much as my family. 

it hit me that enlightenment may be a similar mind state. not putting anything into these huge categories. things were simply as they were.

another time i also felt the wibblies in my gut like i was jumping off of a cliff.

now that ive done this about 3 times. (id like to try it way more) i feel a lot less scared of dying. i know a little bit more of what to expect.

KEY LESSON

IF YOU EXPECT TO BE SCARED SHITLESS AND ARE PREPARED TO FEEL SCARED SHITLESS....ITS ACTUALLY NOT SO BAD. IT'S WHEN YOURE SURPRISED THAT YOU FEEL FEAR THAT YOU TRY PUSH IT AWAY THAT YOU RUN INTO PANIC. ACCEPTANCE CHANGES THE FEAR, AND MAKES IT MORE FLUID.

HAVE FUN TRYING THIS ITS AWESOME!