Going out sober
Been sober for a couple weeks. I've been out several times since then but each of those times I was resisting and a bit bummed out because I wasn't drinking. Then of course trying not to resist, which is also resistance. One big lesson I learned from Tyler and from my own experiences is; if you believe you need to drink or do drugs to have a fun night of partying then that will surely be true. You have to let yourself believe that you can get loose, uninhibited and in a fun party state while sober. Tonight was the first night out this past couple weeks that I could get in a good state of non resistance and have fun partying. It felt really great. I opened quite a bit, had some good interactions. My favorited was with this sexy blonde yoga instructor with great tits. Dang. Got her number and she seems keen to meet up. Almost pulled a threesome at the end of the night. I had two girls that were down but I failed to get them wrangled. One of them had to go give someone a ride. I could have easily done that. The party was letting out and we had no way to reach her. Shit. I yanked the other girl into an empty bingo hall and made out with her a bit. She was a lesbian and preferred girls or maybe a gay man but she wasn't so into me without the other girl. Good night out nonetheless.
Haven't you done program sober before?
I go in and I'm crisp, clean and my vocals are fucking coming out like music. - Anonymous MW student
- Autismus Terminus Finis (Root Cause/Cure of Autism Epidemic)
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Not sure what you mean by program. I've had sober stints in the past where I could get in state. What I mean is this particular night was the first of this particular stint that I was able to surrender to it. It took a couple of weeks to let go.
I meant "program".
I go in and I'm crisp, clean and my vocals are fucking coming out like music. - Anonymous MW student
- Autismus Terminus Finis (Root Cause/Cure of Autism Epidemic)
- Called Off My Wedding & Other Turn Tail Signs Of The American Male
Oh. That clears it up. If you mean bootcamp, yeah, I did the Honolulu one with Tyler and Julian a couple years back. I struggled with the not drinking to be honest. I learned a ton, powered through a lot of pain and anxiety, and also a fair bit of resistance over the not drinking. I'd say I had one fairly good night, one not so good, and one bad night. The last night of program Tyler and I both got punched in the face in two totally separate incidences in the same club at roughly the same time lol.
Getting punched in the face by a girl is great. Really tests your mettle
I go in and I'm crisp, clean and my vocals are fucking coming out like music. - Anonymous MW student
- Autismus Terminus Finis (Root Cause/Cure of Autism Epidemic)
- Called Off My Wedding & Other Turn Tail Signs Of The American Male
A couple more thoughts on last night:
my game is not really that good. My escalation is quite good. It occurred to me that some of my easiest pulls have been threesomes. If you can get two girls together who are into each other, they'll game each other. All you have to do is stay calm, aroused, escalate and lead. They'll do the work for you.
My best line of the night, about a minute into set
-her "do you have a girlfriend?"
-me "no, you?"
-her, sarcastically "no, I don't have a girlfriend."
-me, like a boss "should we find one?"
She gets super-turned on, nuzzles into me and says "you gonna find us one?"
We both got distracted. I found her later, she had a girl isolated sitting down. I threw myself down, started getting physical with both of them. None of us knew each others names by the time we were ready to leave together. That would have been a first for me if I hadn't fucked it up
Yeah bummer. How'd you beef it
I go in and I'm crisp, clean and my vocals are fucking coming out like music. - Anonymous MW student
- Autismus Terminus Finis (Root Cause/Cure of Autism Epidemic)
- Called Off My Wedding & Other Turn Tail Signs Of The American Male
We were working out logistics one minute
girl 1: "we can't go to my house, I'm on the other shore"
girl 2: "we can go to my place but my kids asleep and my husband is down with pneumonia"
me: "sure" lol
then I said "I've got a better idea, we're going to my place its just out of town"
then girl one said "I just have to go drop my friend off" or something like that and darted off without firming up plans. The party got shut down immediately after. I made a play at girl 2 but she was pretty much a lesbian and it was obvious she needed a vagina there. Derp. Girl 2 got cold and left. I shouldn't have let girl one out of my sight.
Lesbian with a husband. Oh the irony.
Oh yeah, no you had to step up and take the reins. You can't let girls trip out thinking about their husbands and kids at home.
I go in and I'm crisp, clean and my vocals are fucking coming out like music. - Anonymous MW student
- Autismus Terminus Finis (Root Cause/Cure of Autism Epidemic)
- Called Off My Wedding & Other Turn Tail Signs Of The American Male
Lesbian with a husband. Oh the irony.
yeah I thought that was funny too. My guess is he's a pretty feminine, if not gay guy
Bump. Some solid stuff - really subtle but solid.
Bump. Some solid stuff - really subtle but solid.