MDMA - THoughts

In a past life, I was addicted to a combination of MDMA and Addoral. I would do it 4-5 times a week. It caused me to have a nervous breakdown, was locked away in a hospital for a day or two and given some drugs to stop the schizofrenia etc. but it also opened up my world, and my perspective in a way that may never have been capable without it. To be honest- I'm just lucky. I could have easily never recovered, but that just doesn't happen to be the kind of person I am..

There was a point where my drug dealer refused to sell it to me because I was doing it too much (you KNOW you're fucked when your gawdamn DRUG DEALER is tryna protect you)

But yes, it fucked with my brain. Like biologically, I won't necessarily ever be the same as I was before I abused it. And no, I would never do it agian, not even once. 

Wow Potted Flowers, glad you recovered from it.  How did you get to doing it so much?

I would say that with me it was a pretty cool experience.   Its my belief that MDMA isn't all that bad if you just want to try it a couple of times.   Its definatley a great experience.  I never really seen any side effects on it personally.  I really enjoy Tech and Deep house so once every month or two Ill dedicate a day to just having a good time with it.  Some people say they feel shitty the next day but personnaly I don't.   This is because of all the release of seratonin in the brain and the next day its recovering which kinda hampers good feelings, this doesnt bother me so much since my head space is pretty good.  Then again I usually have to do more drugs than my friends to feel the same high.  Its a very euphoric feeling and I had alot of powerful insights while on it.  If your into gaming you definatley will like it because your confidence level is through the fucking roof.  Like literally super man mode.     It becomes a problem when you do it OFTEN.  Everyone handles drugs differently, If you know that you can control yourself and that you can limit it to just trying it or maybe doing it once in a while I think you should be just fine, its not like heroine or any type of opiate where you will basically fene for it.

If you do do it please get it from a reputable guy.  Since its become mainstream and all the little kiddies are doing it now its vey hard to find some good stuff.  One thing that happens to me depending on when I do it is that I cannot get an erection.   I personally would recomend doing MDA instead (knickname is called SASS or MANDY).   Its  a more euphoric feeling and you get alot of empathy and cool feelings.  You wont grind your teeth and sex is pretty awesome.  

Ultimatley its your choice, I def don't think its necessary but its definatley a good time if your safe with it.  You really wont get those long term brain side effects that you read about by trying it a couple of times.  Just my opinion.

I had heard a lot about it, and a lot of my friends were doing it. 

I tried it once. Really really really liked it, and just didn't want the feeling to go away.

Like I wish there was a more complex answer- but I just really loved the way it felt.

yea I get what your saying sometimes you get in that headspace and are like shit this is so awesome and I always get this realization like,  I should really be feeling this loving about life all the time like its so stupid how we don't enjoy it as much as we should.  That state of mind is addicting.    Sometimes it makes me realize to enjoy life as much as possible

Yeah. It's been about 6 years since I last abused that crap

This is pretty much point on in my experience. Though I never had boner problems. (on the other hand only had sex when already coming down again, so who knows) Its rather just that sex is not really that important, when you feel you just love everyone and everything is just nice and warm and mellow.

First time I took it was on a little rave I organized with a couple of friends in spain. Directly on the cliffs of the atlantic. It was reserved jsut for a small circle of people, but as the love was rising later suddenly everyone was invited. haha. Pure hilarity ensured. lots of random fucking and kissing, even two good friends who are decidedly not gay normally found a liking to each other, apparently. lol,  I ended up going nude surfing in at nine in the morning with another friend, completely cut my feet. Fotos were taken. they should not get into the hands of children.

Also I just took it only couple  a handful of times.It's one few a drugs that never had this addictive effect. 

I found it provided an interesting point of view on possibilities of consious experience already in me, so to say. Then I found that actually getting in state naturally is way more powerful high for me. And though its not the same as flying on M, it does tap into the or similar energy ressources as it. Anyway its very intersting drug to experience. And maybe once or twice a year not much more. otherwise you fry you brain.

Also I have experience people on M when I was sober and I didn't like it at all. especially a former fuckbuddy, who probably took way too much. There is something very off about them. Some enormous artificiality. Like being forced to be happy, but unrelaxed and twitchy at same time. HArd to describe. Very different from drunk people . they are real in a important sense compared to people on M.

On Coke: I still want to fuck on coke once. lol. Should be amaziiiiinng. BUT I really dislike the vibe of people on coke.

That sounds like a pretty awesome adventure.  Im going back to Ibiza in September and will hopefully have some fun times again.

I totally get what you are saying about having the ability to get to that state of mind naturally as a better high.  When you can just be naturally happy like that its like the greatest feeling.  I think the molly just magnifies this,  meditation really has been cool for me as well.  Yea  those peeps who force themselves to do it to kinda "be happy" it just actually makes it worse, they aren't happy or in a good state internally.

I've never used it, I've never wanted to try it and be like.. DAMN. I NEED MOAR. And then I read about Buddha's story and I'm like.. holy shit. 

It's really fun. Make sure your connect is good and you get pure MDMA. Stay hydrated since it will cause you to sweat a lot. First time is always the best. Also, take HTP pills after to help replenish all the dopamine. You'll be edgy when you come down but that should help balance you out. I recommend trying it at least once. Make sure you're with a group and with people you trust. It'll help facilitate good vibes. I'm sorry to hear about your experience bg, but glad you came out of it a better person. 

I took it once, but at the time had crazy about getting shit drugs or ending up dying from it being laced with bath salts. So I got my friend with a bitcoin account to buy some for me and himself on the silk road when it was still open. 

This stuff came in and was measured at around 97% pure. This was pure moon rock.

Anyways I was naive and didnt know how much to take and my friend gave me a very little. Much smaller than the average dose than people took. Around 20 minutes in I let him know this wasnt working. He said wait a little longer. I walk away and instantly feel it. This was seriously insane!

I remember doing some crazy shit on this stuff. I would give girls million mile per hour high fives, and I would even grope and dance on girls with boyfriends...and stare the boyfriend right in the eye while I did it like it was ok! HAHA 

Anyways on the way down I wanted to get that spike again. But I conciously knew that was the wrong idea.

I would not do it again because I can tell of its addictive properties, good thing I was strong minded or I'd be like some kids I know who purely use this as a form of getting out of there shell and being able to have fun.

I dont wanna sound corny or like a granola fag but stay away from drugs. You can get high from meditations. It is proven. I have even experienced it myself. I see it as doing it once for an experience for life but never make a habit of it.

Silk Road's back open. Derp 

Learn something new everyday. Is it still an online black market or is the government keeping a good eye on it?

Some still think it's a honey trap def. 

MDMA is a no go. Or maybe once for the experience type thing. It takes a month to fully recover from, and these kids pop them like candy resulting in one death a month in our city alone. there was a distinct rise in hospitalizations thanks to edm. People have been doing it for what seems like forever now but it disappeared in the mainstream for a bit. Society is pretty fucked up when it comes to powders and elixirs

I can agree with this 10000%. After I took it I was off for about 6 months. This shit really gets you drained.