Mental Meltdown
Wussup guys,
I m writing this post as a way of expressing what i feel right now and maybe light the flame back .Lately i find myself drifting mentaly to the abyss...Basicaly,i cant find a thing that gets me out of the hamster wheel.After i got this well paid job that doesn't help me at all at a personal level(i get money for nothing...its crazy how banks waste money because of their lack of IT know-how...no tasks for 3 months now...just going through the motions..8 hours a day).What i "developed " is a classic consumer problem...i get a little more money,no goal to strive for...i just start looking for things to spend money on...to feed some inner bottomless pit.I want to find that thing that sparks my interest and makes me rev it up...For some reason even pick up didn't got my attention...i mean i m way better then 95% of the males in my city but i dont know why i dont have that drive anymore...at first i wanted to be a personal coach and speaker/blogger .I ve did a good job and people would read my stuff.Slowly this thing died inside of me as well.The feeling i get is that i will never make it to the level i dream i would and this probably scares me off.
I m sure you guys may have delt with this issue but i m kind stuck.I dont have a lot of regrets in life...only 1...that i never got to do a sport professionaly,mainly because i was raised in a small town with not much help on this side.Now i m 22 and my dreams of goind pro on a sport start to die.I m still a sensible guy...i was pretty shy with new people before i started looking into pick up...playing poker boosted the need for even more analitical thinking...i dont know if this is a good thing or a bad thing...sometimes it helped me to overthink something...sometimes did not.
Let me know what you think about this.Much appreciated ;)
That's your problem right there... you're overthinking everything. You need to cut the bullshit in your head. Then you'll be able to discover/FOCUS on what truely matters.
Dude, do you even meditate/listen to Practising the Power of Now? :)
This is a simple matter of finding something that matches your ambitions. It may not just be one thing, it could be multiple things. But a man with ambitions MUST be working/reaching for something.
Health, wealth, and love. The holy trifecta. What are you aiming for in each?
First of all if you've got cash you should be investing it into something businesswise. Something you believe in that's going to give you a return you can measure and continue to grow. You must also be on full terms with the feminine. Engaged and inspired with "her". Are you, really? And yes you need to continue to fulfill, challenge and discover supremacy over your body and physical existence. You mentioned not playing a sport professionally, but c'mon dude.. there's SO MUCH MORE to athletics than that! Haha!
yes i ve listened and also read Power of Now.All those described things are something i m aware off.I wont sink in them but i m aware of them.
For sure i will find a fix.I think another point i have to mention is that i feel overloaded by things i would want to do and this burns me out.I think i dont have the ability to do one thing at a time.I Dont have the patience to do the dirty work.
The dirty work is the work. Big projects and successes come from the dirty work. Nothing else
So all you're saying is you're not capable of becoming great.
yes.i think i want to be good at soo many things it overwhelms me and i end up doing nothing but "preparing " to start doing something