My Journal To Become a True Badass

Cool man, good stuff.

@tolle:

Good shit man. I identify with alot of what you said. The thing about "hooking up with six's" is hilarious

@tolle:

I haven't been out since almost about two weeks ago.... Horrible I know.

Anyways yesterday I finished 4 exams in 4 days. It wasn't that bad. Haven't been talking to chicks that much other than the girls I know around in my dorms.

Got one more exam on the 15th I need to study hard for(math).

Honestly, I should have gone out last weekend for at least a night. I really let myself go by stopping the habits that I needed and half studying....

Its weird, its like cutting out my two passions(game + business) actually hurt me cause I stopped meditating, eating healthily, etc. I could have kept doing those things and then actually studied because I would have learned twice the amount in the same time cause I would have been sharper.

Will not happen. Next time finals happen I'm going to be ruthless in making sure I don't bullshit around. I'm smart enough to get a good grade by studying and still going out a bit, plus working on business a decent amount, especially when I meditate and eat greens cause then I retain so much more information.

Last night I worked on business from like 12am-6 am, then tried to sleep. I couldn't sleep cause I fucking love business and new ideas just kept rushing into my head. Woke up and went back to work. Me and Fingerfag have 700 bucks in profit from our last quick project to invest into our new project which should make us a solid monthly income. Also I'm working on something with another friend of mine which is going to be awesome.

My sleep cycle's fucked completely, I'm going to try staying awake as long as I can today. I'll just keep working on business until I fall asleep.

After waking up, I'm going to put in around 4-5 hours of studying math.

I want to go out tonight too.

Lessons Learned-
-Keep going out and doing business during exams cause those two things keep me mentally sharp. Also they force me to meditate every day and eat greens.
-Oh, and this goes without saying, but I need to attend all my lectures next semester because that makes it a lot easier on me.

@tolle:

Oh and I've been texting this chick who I'm cool with. I'm pretty sure she likes me.

She just texted me this-

Fuck exams. When are you done?

Any ideas? I got netflix if that helps. And ice cream.

@tolle:

My exams are done... FUCK YEAH!!!!!
Went out first time since exams started(exactly 14 days).

My roomate offered me weed before i left, had a couple of bowls, got really fucking high.

Went out to the bar with a friend extremely high, bought 3 shots of vodka and a long island tea and got drunk....

Approached some girls... fatty was down but I wasn't(no more fat chicks for me).

Did 6-7 appraoches, good to be back in the game. Mostly meh appraoches or blowouts other than the fatty and one hot asian chick who had horrible breath that I ejected from cause I hated her breath... what the fuck girls need to learn about gum. I've been just studying so its great to be back. Need to back on my drills, meditate every day, and go out sober every day other than New Year's Eve.

I've been texting chick from before, she's back up home but I can tell she's down so I'm probably gonna hook up with her during or after break(she's in Toronto where I'm at).

Break is gonna be 2 things- business and game.

Be like, "Yeuh bruh. Got netflix. Come eat this ice creaM"

Nice. Will try that out.

Sun night(sober)-

Went to a loud club with my wings, a really loud ass club.

Had a very fun night, mostly short interactions, but I reapproached some of them. I notice that on the reapproach I lose the set really easily, like the first interaction I'll walk away but the second one they'll end it.

My physical game sucked. Half ass claws, thumb wars was going well though.

But my vibe was fucking awesome. I was having an insanely fun time. I'd be fake rapping and dudes would rap with me or girls would rap with me. I easily did 15 approaches or more.

Sun night(Sober)-

I went to a high end club and they were having an industry awards night.

Walk in and I'm already feeling intimidated. Me and my wings split off.

Environmental hypnosis.

Remember my training and focus on black nimbus. I never really get into it but I do a decent amount of approaches.

Reapproached two of them. The first reapproach the girl kind of turned away and grabbed at her friend, Idk why but girls keep doing this(happened on Sat night too). Is this a shit test or a blowout? From my perspective it looked like she was trying to get help or something.

The second reapproach was a chubby girl. It was actually 2 girls and the hot one left me and the chubby lol. I dont know how that interaction ended.

There was another two set that I tried to wing my friend but I fucked up by not getting physical while he was dancing with his chick.

Other than that, nothing of note, I thumb'warred a couple of girls. Its a great move and girls fucking love it lol. I'm becoming a thumb war addict but I suck at it, girls keep beating my ass.

I'm starting to recognize what's going on. I've been slacking on my dominance. Its something that does require a conscious effort so I"ll get on it tomorrow. I think I did something like 6-7 approaches tonight which is kind of pussy shit. In this type of venues you can't let the venue affect you at all otherwise you're fucked.

Here's what I gotta get back on-
1. Talking shit. Telling them to fuck off. Using negativity in my game. I've been too positive and logical in my conversations.
2. Get physical fast and be dominant. That shit creates mad attraction.
3. Hold them in set instead of listening to their little bullshit about having to see their friends.
4. Approach the hottest girls to amp up entitlement.

What Manwhore says about dominance is very true. Girls want to fuck dominant guys and cannot help but be attracted.

@tolle:

Focus on the BLACK NIMBUSSSSSSSSS

lol nice.

@tolle:

Tuesday night

Worked on biz for most of the day, chilled with friends.

Went out tired and on 5 hours of sleep.

I couldn't get into the clubs my friends got into. I walked up like a faggot, thats why I got rejected. Gotta look the bouncer in the eye. Also, wear my better jeans(everything else was good, I had solid shoes and a nice coat).

So I head to this other club solo.

This is the first time I've been completely solo and sober. Other times I'd walk in with my wings into the club and get seperated, or maybe wing with them for a small part of the night.

This night it was all me.

Fucking hard stuff. I did 1 approach in the first hour. Two asian girls who were 6s. I saw them again but didn't reapproach, I was being a bitch. The girl actually liked me.

Do my second approach on some girl and just talk at her for a minute. I'm feeling kindoff weird but I prevent myself from having a state crash(which is hard to recover from). I have much better emotional control thanks to Manwhore.

I set a goal of 5 approaches.

Third approach was done soon after(tried to stop a girl but she intro'd herself and kept walking).

Fourth approach, the girl listened to for a minute and walked away.

Fifth approach, chubby girl, thumb warr'd her and she's attracted but she's with her friends and gives the "nice to meet you" treatment. I dont' really care as I just want to get my approaches done with on my first sober and solo night out.

Do a 6th approach in the bar with some girl, she shit tests me I look in her eyes. My eye contact has been kind of weak lately and I notice myself flinching sometimes. Talk at her for a minute and then she's just on her phone.

I leave. On the way to meet my friends. Talked to some 4 about the club she was in(approach 7).

Outside, I chat to these 2 guys and a girl about that club.

See two hot blonde girls, approach and one of them is being cool the other just shuts me off. I didnt' go in hard, dominant, or direct(some bullshit about the club but I focused on the eye contact).

Anyways, that was 9 approaches completely on my own with no wings to give me support. Even having a wing in the same venue helps. I'm pretty proud of this as this is the first step to being able to go out solo and pimp it.

Did 1 last approach on some Asian girl sitting down after I met up with my friends. Doesn't really feel real but she just texts and ignores me, I walk away.

Tomorrow my friends want to go to some high end club but we have to get there at 9:30 PM. I have a session with Manwhore at 10-11 pm so I'm probably gonna end up going solo to this hipster bar. I'd rather go the hipster bar anyways cause they have hip hop night and it'll give me a chance to roll solo.

I think rolling solo will really develop that ability to take right action which is one of my weaknesses. And it just makes you so much more emotionally stronger because you have to rely on yourself and have no wings to help you.

Also I talked to three random dudes during the night just to stay social. Pretty cool because it helps develop the right vibe of being a chill guy.

@tolle:

Wednesday

Woke up and ate some greasy thai takeout.

Immediatly sunk into lower consciousness, took a nap and masturbated. Did 1/3 of the work I did yesterday. Nutrition is so key for me, when I'm on nutrition I'm productive.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ev7D4xEhpi4

Went out. Got to the bar late and chill in the line. The whole Toronto crew is there.

Finally get in.

Manwhore really forced me to be loud in our 1/2 hour session today. He also told me to basically go in and attempt to get laid. I followed both pieces of advice by being louder and more aggressive tonight. Also no more masturbation or porn.

My first approach is the best one. I go in and I'm just talking to her but very loudly. Sometimes I'd be quieter but I could tell when I was doing this because she leaned in so I'd just focus on being loud again. Basically Manwhore told me to be as loud in the club as I'm while I do my drills. Talk about stuff, like hipsters and hip hop. Tease her for liking shitty music.

Her friends(mixed group) come to say goodbye. I can sense something from the dude so I just talk to him and vibe then I set off cause theyre taking a long time.

I do more appraoches, on the dance floor they don't stick. Talk to a girl on the side of the dancefloor and its going pretty well but then I"m like "I need to lead" and awkwardly grab at her hand and said lets go to the bar(I was attempting Alex's brush and lead). I just walked away after that cause I felt so embarrased about that cause it got awkward quick. Reference point though, next time I'll be better at it so its all good.

At a certain point I start getting into an intense try hard vibe. I'm approaching but I'm just being intense and trying to say lots of shit to get their attention. There was something unhealthy about it and I could feel the anxiousness in my head. Also I wasn't reapproaching the first girl, she was dancing in a corner with her friends and for some reason I kept coming up with rationalizations. Sticking point, Im pretty sure it was because I didn't want to fuck it up and lose the validation I had from the first interaction.

I chill for 10 minutes trying to relax myself. Do an approach while seated and I almost had it hooked(she even turned back to look after walking away).

Night is over and the lights are on so I grab my coat. Some girls says something mean to my friend and I call her a fucking bitch in a harsh tone. On the way out she says something to him and I just loudly say "FUCK YOU".

I do a few more approaches outside. I'm looking at a poster of nachos and some black girl is right near me and we make eye contact and I say the poster looks delicious. She says I look delicious and proceeds to game me. She has shitty breathy and is a 3, even though Manwhore says I should go for the easy lay ups I'm not down for her lol.

Positives of Tonight-

-Approached quite a decent amount of girls(I don't know how many but probably 10+)
-Better tonality, I think I was easily 30 percent louder than usual.
-More aggressive today, used negativity too.

Lessons-

Stick to daily habits like no masturbation, no porn, and eating healthy.
Reapproach girls, fuck the validation.
Occasionally check myself to ensure I'm relaxed and coming from the right place.
Approach even more, I think I could easily do 50 percent more approaches which would really help me get results if I push even harder.

@tolle:

Thursday Night

I take a nap at 7 pm but I fucking wake up at 12:30 am instead of half a hour as I wanted to....

So put on whatever shitty clothes I could, grabbed a mint, and put in my contacts. No time to do the drills either like I usually do before going out.

Meditated for 20 minutes on the subway but it was shit cause I was groggy lol.

Get in the bar. Do my first open and its okay but her friends distract her and I move on. See my friend with a girl and he says hi to him, chat for a sec and go my own way.

Do a bunch of appraoches throughout the night.

Its a college bar, you need to be dominant because you're dealing with retarded and immature young girls.

My opens are pretty decent. Do an approach and thumb war the girl, its going well until her retarded friend cockblocks like an idiot(like hugs and runs away). I'm being loud but its still hard to get them to stop.

My friend is talking to a few girls and they are being pretty bitchy to them. I go in and try to wing but they're being like massive bitches so I mock them.

Some more approaches, find it hard to hook because of the friends etc. I realize I need to get physical much faster otherwise the friend will cockblock, when you are physical with a girl, it appears as if you are together. So I"m gonna focus on just pushing the limits on getting physical fast, and then chilling back when I know I have the girl hooked.

Go outside and do a couple of approaches with my buddy. He kind of pisses the girls off and they leave.

Overall a pretty decent night, the only issue being I came into the bar at 1:30 when last call is at 2 so I kindoff rushed things instead of settling into a good vibe for the night.

Friday and Saturday night should be fun, as they will be full 3-4 hour nights.

Gnight, gonna meditate and do my drills now.

Positives-

Approached while being groggy, having not showered, and in shitty clothes. Always take right action.
I"m getting better at mocking girls.

Lessons-

Get physical faster and deal with the cockblocks properly(As Manwhore says, just tell them "Hold on for a sec".)
Don't take naps in the evening lol.
Meditate 1 hour a day to become super chill.

@tolle:

Friday Night

Got 50 minutes of meditation in today :). 30 minutes in my house, and 20 in the Subway.

ITs fucking freezing today, wind chill of around 17 F.

I do my vocal drill shit in the house but once I get out I'm freezing and body constricts up...

Get in the club, takes me some time to warm up(literally).

Do my first approach(I don't even remember it)

I see some RSD guys I know. My usual wings are coming later.

The beginning of the night was interesting. I'd get into black nimbus and a really present state, approach and then get blown out. After every blowout I felt a little off centre and anxious and it took me another 4-5 minutes to get back into black nimbus. Is this normal or am I doing something wrong?

Anyways night is still kindoff meh, I try to dance with one hot asian girl, she dances for a sec and moves away, probably a shittest I failed by walking away......

Anyways I reapproach her later at end of night and she's from my school(she knows of me) which is cool cause I"m definitely gonna see her again. Have a good chat with her.

Back to the first half of the night though, I was doing appraoches but they were really not hitting and I kept getting knocked of center.

At a certain point I ask my friend to count me down for 30 seconds and do an approach. Two hot girls in fur coats who ask me if I have MDMA.... lol fucking druggie club girls...

Then I'm by myself again, chode around and negative thought patters come up again. At a certain point though, I think about what Manwhore said about rejecting negative frames, and I realize that applies to my bullshit negative frames too. Fucking powerful and I do a few approaches and get into a better mood.

Talk to some Asian girl from Brazil who's ok, I try to shift after the bar for water but she doesn't comply so I just go talk to other girls.

Some girl steps with her heels on me and I talk to her. ITs like the bitchiest group in the bar but we're talking and getting along. Her less attractive friend tries to but in and I'm kind of pissed and look at her and say "How's it going" in an authoritative manner(aka I'm not falling into her little bullshit frame). Anyways the whole group moves away a few feet.

Me and my wing approach a fatty and a cutie. He takes the fatty while I talk to the cute girl. She's being evasive I just keep talking, tell her to focus on my eyes. Did pretty good sticking in set despite her being all evasive. Walk away after 5 minutes of this.

Reappraoch her again talk at her again. Leave again.

I see her dancing with another guy later, probably should have approached again and physically escalated. As Alex said she was being evasive cause she likes me. She wasn't actively telling me to fuck or walking away. A big goal of mine is developing more self trust in situations like these.

The reason most naturals do well is cause they have blind spots and they just persist and stand around.

Anyways there were more approaches. I did quite lot of approaches today. Pretty happy with the work put in. I reapproached some girls too, and stayed in set for longer.

My tonality was up and down throughout the night. I remember a point where I got 3 quick blowouts because I was not keeping my focus on being loud. Overall though, vocal tonality has been improving every night I go out.

Positives-
-Reapproached some girls.
-Stayed in set longer and endured more tests.
-Realized the importance of rejecting my own bullshit mental frames.
-Lot of approaches.
-I did get physical fast on a couple of approaches.

What I need to keep on working on-
-Keep getting physical with more girls with the claw, hugs, spins, etc.
-Reappraoch even more, persist in set longer.
-Make sure I"m speaking loudly at all times, especially on the open.

Alex's shit ties in well with Manwhore's teachings, especially the reapproaching girls and coming from a place of relaxation. Overall I'm seeing some great growth in just 1 week, I got 2 more weeks of winter break left so I"m interested in seeing how things end up.

I remember in college that I had some nights where i was getting the anime eyes from girls from going in hard. Havent' had that happen in Toronto but I think it will(we suck the most shit before we improve the most).

@tolle:

Saturday Night

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ep0hay4Qw54

Tonight was pretty cool.
Basically before going in downtown I made the conscious decision that I'd focus on Alex's style of game but with Manwhore's advice. Basically implementing what Manwhore told me to do but in line with "I am enough" and "There's no reason why I'm not enough".

I had a pretty damn good night. Beginning of night it was a bit tough warming up as usual. However, once I'm warmed up I do some pretty good approaches.

First one that stood out was this hot hot blonde. This was beginning of the night, I walk up and I'm not trying too hard, say some shit about her being Santa and me being naughty. I'm coming from a place of relaxation and an understanding that shit tests are to be endured. This combo is potent yo, Manwhore's training has taught me how to dominate my own emotions so I can implement Alex's style easily. Anyways I'm chatting her up and she says this "I can't do this, I just broke up with my boyfriend blahblah". I'm taken by surprise but i'm like "you're getting ahead of yourself" and "we're just having a conversation". Her friends pull her away at this point. I made a mistake by not reapproaching her and I see her later at night dancing with some dude and her friend having to drag her away. She was down for dick but had strong rationlizations that I should have taken care by reapproaching...

The second approach was stood out was this girl that was just standing there. I open her, and I ask her name, she asks mine. I tell her we're gonna thumb wars and however loses is gonna tell the other their name. She cheats and then I tell her she's naughty and Santa's gonna not bring her any gifts. Chat to her friend for a sec. They kind of dance of away from me so I decide to reapproach later.

Approach the girl a second time get physical(hug her and talk to her while hugging her). She asks my real name. We talk about being balling.
Anyways I fuck up around here, she asks me "Why haven't we done shots yet". I thought she was trying to get me to be a chode drink buyer but I say I"m not drinking cause I have work tomorrow. Her friend is standing there bored and she finally takes her away lol. I should have just led her to the bar and ordered a water for myself. She was giving me anime eyes but her friend was standing there staring at us so I didn't go for a makeout. Damn a wing would have been helpful in this situation.

Third really good set was two girls dancing. I go up and at first cant get their attention but I"m chill and I say "How's it going" again. One of the girls looks like this hottie from school and I tell her she reminds me of her. Chat and its going well but her friend takes her away. Should have reapproached but I didn't fail on my part..

End of night I approached a girl and her friend put her hand on my face. I gently shoved her head away. She cut me in lien for coat check but lost her coat and the bouncer berated her while I enjoyed the show :). Irrelevant but I love it when dumb bitches get whats coming to them for their retarded behavior.

Im rolling mostly solo right now cause my wings like to do their own shit. I need to have environmental awareness so I can deal with the cockblock("hold on for a sec" etc.)

ALso I need to start taking numbers so I can start practicing my text game. Another realization I had is black nimbus is good for some nights when you are in that frame, while on other nights I"m in a more happy mood. Both are just tools in my arsenal.

Positives-
Came from a place of "I am enough", was relaxed most of night.
Persisted in set.
Was pretty funny and chill.
Got physical on those girls, clawing them in and shit.

What I need to keep improving on-

Reapproach girls.
Stay in set even longer, persist harder.
Enviromental awareness, deal with cockblockers.
Start taking numbers.
Lead.

@tolle:


sweet FR john.

@tolle:

^Sorry tobias not gonna change my name lol(he wants me to change my name to something more common). But my name is awesome.

Sunday night

This is my 9th Night out straight.

Meditated 50 minutes today. Haven't fapped for the last 4 days. On the way to the club I pop a boner reading Manwhores lay report(super bj).

Get in the club. Fuck its loud as shit.

First few approaches are kind of meh, its too fucking loud to just talk on the dancefloor or even off the dancefloor. I need to keep working on my voice, its loud enough for every other bar and club, but this place I struggle to talk over the music.

I'm coming from "I am enough". My main focus is on staying in set and reapproaching.

I do this with excellence. Take lots of shit tests and only leave after I've recieved a barrage of shit lol.

One group of two hottie 19 year olds. Fucking hot girls nice tits and asses. They blow me out the first time, they're blowing everyone out. I persist, keep trying to get a conversation started. I appraoached them a total of 3 times and stayed in for a decent while each time. I wouldn't have done that even a few days lol.

At one point I almost had one of the girls who had braces. I was talking shit("what are you like 12 with your braces). Put my arm around her, realize I'm being a pussy with a soft grab and grab her hard and just stare at her hard too lol. I almost had it but her friend came in at that moment. I could tell that she was getting attractedd

Those two girls found 2 asian chode bottle buyers who kept giving them drinks. I came up the 3rd time and the girl with braces shoves me but I can tell she's doing that cause she wants those drinks lol.

I approached a ton of girls, and reapproached them too, mostly blowouts or getting cockblocked or some bullshit. Need to be more physical and dominant in this venue. Approached one girl, spun her around and then her friend intercepts hugs and carries her away. She's not hot(like a chubby) so I didn't reapproach(should have, no excuses, a bj from her would be amazing).

There was 1 2 set that I approached beginning of night but I should have talked to them again but I didn't... fail on my part.

Anyways later in the night I was knocked a bit off centre. Approached these girls, after plowing one of them opens up but then I start feeling weird and try hard . I leave the set. Should have just stayed in. I gotta understand "I am enough" even when I don't feel I;m not.

I keep taking action though. Very satisfied with tonight. Lots of persistence on my part, didn't get emotionally affected by all the tests thrown my way. Compared to a few nights back, I'm staying in set way longer, persisting way longer, and re approaching way more. I'm just becoming so much more awesome. Props to Manwhore for helping me become massively more emotionally stronger, to the point where I'm improving 3 times faster per day than I was in summer when I did my 30 Day challenge in Toronto.

Positives-

Reapproached a good amount of girls.
Stayed in set even though girls were giving me shit.
Approached hotties and for a good part of the night I felt completely "I am enough".
Kept going even though not much was going my way.
Became emotionally much stronger.

Things to work on-

Dominant and physical in this venue, physical and dancefloor game is the way to go.
I'm enough even if I'm feeling like I'm not. Regardless of what emotional state I'm in, I'm enough.
Keep working daily on the vocal drills, keep improving my voice.

@tolle:

Didn't go out last 2 nights cause of Christmas Eve and Christmas.

Went out tonight.

I didn't do my drills before going out cause I ran out of time. Gay. Gotta do that everytime.
Get in venue solo, first I kind of chill, start talking to a group of guys(anything to get in a relaxed social mood).

Then I talk to some chubby girl with some situational shit lol. its all good just warming up slowly.

Anyways I'm not really warmed up till like 12:30(got in at 11:40). I start talking to more girls. I remember two girls who are just like "we are having a girls night out". Later I reapproach them and they're like "You're being annoying". Haha whatever, I know I kindoff ran shitty game on them. My voice was a little weak because of missing the drills today so it took some time for that to start hitting.

I kind of feel my nights going crappy and I'm not in that great of a vibe. This is in all honestly complete bullshit though, I simply hadn't met anyone I had chemistry with. I keep focusing on me being enough and resist the temptation to "try".

Anyways, at a certain point shit just starts hitting. I hit up this cute tall blonde and we have great chemistry but she has a boyfriend. She tells me I'm cute and I know it haha. I try to makeout with her and that's when she brings up the boyfriend.

Me and a wing start dancing with these two girls. My girl is a hot latina with a nice ass. I dance with her and she runs back to her friend. I reapproach her later.

In the meantime I go talk to more girls, some drunk Iranian looking chick who gives me a boner and runs away.

I'm having a fun time, see these two girls I make eye contact and the girl puts her arm around me and starts dancing. Her friend kind of pulls away but I love how my vibe basically got her to approach me lol. I should have stayed in that but I don't.

I talk to a hottie with an amazing body, I should have danced with her but I didn't. See her dancing with a tall black guy later. Lol, that could have been me.

Reappraoch the hot latina, dance with her again. Her friend is alone so I try to get my friend back. Some black guy starts dancing with her friend and some brown guy is dancing around my girl haha. I just come in and start dancing with her cause the brown guy is a faggot who's just dancing around her.

Basically a half hour interaction, alternating between dancing and chatting. I'm not saying anything super funny, I'm just being me. I try to makeout with her a few times lol. She's like "why are you trying to kiss me". I say "because I find you very attractive". "but you barely know me". "I can tell you're different, and I love latina girls, you're cool". I then go into asking questions about her being able to cook food and show my knowledge of Ecuadorean cuisine from the one restaurant I ate at lol.

I lead her to grab a drink of water at the bar. Keep chatting. Unfortunately lights come at this point so I get in line for coat check. I meet some random dude who's doing an afterparty. She has work in 6 hours and isn't down for the afterparty so I grab her number and say goodbye(tell her I"m gonna take her on a date to McDonalds. See her outside the club and say bye again. My friend grabbed her friends number.

Pretty solid shit, I have no idea if she'll flake or not(probably, my text game is complete shit). But yeah, Awesome night. "I am enough".

Positives-
Great vibe, talked to the hotties(Toronto hipster bar hotties, probably not that hot for you NYC or Vegas guys).
Did some leading, reapproached.
Gawdamn I'm sexy.
Went out in a fucking snowstorm thats dedication.

Lessons-
Do my drills every single time before I go out cause it cuts down warm up time massively.
I am enough, as long as I keep that in mind I can kill it with hot girls.
An interaction has a rhythm, I did a good job of alternating between rubbing my boner on her and chatting to her.

What I gotta keep working-
Keep staying in set, and keep reappraoching(some more girls I should have reapproached).
Keep practicing my leading.

Overall I'm fucking improving so fast its incredible. I feel every couple of nights I'm leveling up. I cant' wait till I'm back in school cause I'm going to murder it.

I'm going to Montreal for a 5 day trip. Its going to be fucking amazing cause we'll have perfect logistics(a few minutes from the club). I'm leaving day after tomorrow.

@tolle:

Thursday night-

Got destroyed. Reapproached multiple times and got rejected massively. Whatever lol, I kept going. Highlight of the night was some chubby chick being a bitch. I shouted her down "shut the fuck up you're fucking fat". Lol it was hilarious. Her guy friends were super pissed but I walked away.

Friday night-

Arrived in Montreal at like 1 am. On an empty stomach go to hipster bars. I'm more concerned about finding my best friend from the USA(we both decided to meet up in Montreal). I find him and we bromance together lol. He pulled a chick to the bathroom haha. His elder bro's here too, a natural with 300+ lays.

Talked to some girls over the night. I was in Montreal earlier this year and its insane how much easier it is now that my game is good. Montreal girls are more attractive, classier, and friendlier than TO girls. I had a couple drinks too, nothing to get me drunk or even buzzed but enough to keep me warm.

First noteable set is this Asian girl. I'm almost freaked out by how nice she is, and she is leaning in and shit. She's really cute, invites me to her dj thing at Tuesday night at a local bar. I see her later, chat to her. I didn't number close. For some reason I still have old habits from the last time I was in Montreal, instead of the hard closer habits I've been developing in Toronto(escalating more, going for numbers, etc.). I noticed this later on with these two Portugese girls I opened on the way home by myself. Damn they were hot and super nice, I was making them laugh. Walked with them for like 5-7 minutes, I should have number closed but I didn't for virtually no reason. Realized its cause the last time I was here my game sucked so I need to consciously do the same shit I do in Toronto.

My friend was trying to pull this one chick with two friends, we walked with them to a poutine place and ate with them. Ditched them when it was apparent pull wasn't going down. It was good practice though, cause we approached on the street and I kept ploughing even though my two girls weren't giving me that much attention. I realize ploughing through Toronto bitchshields has made me a master of being emotionally unaffected by bullshit.

Anyways tonight was chill, I spent a lot of time hanging with my friend.

Positives-
Worked on street game.
Attempted to help my friend pull with the afterparty move even if it didnt go down.

What to work on-

-Realize that my autopilot responses of not going for escalation, numbers, pulls are a remnant of the last visit to Montreal, I'm so much more awesome now. Just escalate, go for makeouts, go for pull. I think I was actually freaked out how friendly these girls are after the massive rape I forced myself to last night lol. LIke literally, I just have to be cool, get numbers, set up dates, go for SNLs when I can.

-Go for bathroom pulls in these hipster bars. Seriously the competition is pathetic now that I have developed myself.
Montreal is the shit.

@tolle:

Plan of action for Montreal in 4 days.

-Number close as many girls as possible so I can text em all end of night for afterparty. Or try to set up a day 2 at the bar in the evening of the next day.
-Physically escalate well and go for the the bathroom pull each night.
-End of night try to pull every night for afterparty.
-Try to do streetgame afterparty pulls at the end of night.

The game begins in earnest tomorrow. Time to go HAM on this shit.

@tolle:

Sat night-

WEnt to two hipster bars and got pretty fucking drunk when I pre-gamed with friends. I kept forgetting girls names. I was getting girls attracted but I was highly unfocused due to being drunk. Regardless learned that when I'm drunk I still gotta stay focused. Had a fun time though, some dude bought me and my friend a shot and I flirted with one of his female friends.

Sun night-

Me and my friends didn't get into the club cause they took forever to get there while I tried to prod them along to get there. I made a mistake by not going there on my own. Lesson learnt, Sunday night in Montreal I have to get into Muzique or Tokyo.

Mon night-

New years eve drunk. Went in doing fairly decently but my emotions were all over the place. At one point I have a major state crash drunk but my buddy is like "dude be internally strong". Realized I was being a bitch. Approached cute asian girl whose friend my buddy was on. Alternate between escalation and conversation. Get the makeout at some point.

My friend basically gets us to pull. They wont come in our apartment so we get food and then come back and they still wont come in. His girl is fucking it up but I deal with it badly by basically giving up instead of trying to pull my chick. Manwhore and me went over the interaction and he told me I should have told my chick that her girl was being immature and fucking it up for her. Basically me and the girl vs her frame.

The other thing we talk about is leading, I didn't lead in the bar in the interaction other than one shitty attempt(lets go to dance floor). I should have been constantly leading her, even if it is 10 feet away. That shit is stuff that chicks love and leading is compulsory.

Another thing we talked about is that makeouts are overrated and I shouldn't worry about them too much. Girls will fuck me even if they refuse to makeout with me.

Tonight(Tues)-

Went out sober. Havne't meditated last 5 days and have been eating like shit lol. Night was rough but its to be expected after going out drinking for like 4 nights straight. Did a lot of approaches though, and pushed my willpower. Also learned I need to stop asking so many questions, and say more statements. I could have plowed better but I'm just happy I did my approaches while being in such a DURR state of mind.

I'm going back to TO tomorrow. I'm going to get back to meditation which will allow me the control over my vibe that I need.

Overall I'm satisifed with my short 5 day trip with that pull to our apartment door and food which was an excellent reference experience in terms of pulling. Montreal is the shit, I def wanna live here in the summer for a month.

@tolle:


My Year and My Goals for this Year-

2012 Was amazing-

-Became far more consistent with meditation. I meditate most days now.

-Got my first makeouts in 2 days in Feb when my friend hooked me up with 2 sixes, then my first lay, and then I got a bonus blowjob from the fatty(not proud of that lol).

-Socially went from being super insecure to a fairly cool guy who has a lot of friends. Coming into 2012 I didn't have a solid social circle other than my game friends and a couple more dudes(I hadn't had one since I moved from the US in 2010), in Feb I met one of my best friends whose dorm I crashed in a completely different city(Atlanta) while he pushed my comfort zone by intro'ing me to crazy ass people and getting me my first makeouts by walking me through it. I'd say along with Manwhore's training he's been the biggest influence on me because he basically made me more chill and normal, and a guy who can vibe with people relatively well.

-Business Wise I advanced massively to actually consistently make 200-600 a month in profit for a large part of the year. I have two big biz projects, one which is practically almost ready to roll and another which will take another 2-3 weeks to set up. Both projects are easily 50-100 dollars a day in terms of profit.

-I went to University, did a decent job with grades(I could do better). However, socially I did amazing, to the point where I satiated my desire to be "cool" and realized that its complete bullshit. I also fucked up a lot of chances with girls with bad luck or shitty decisions, but I'd say I'm very happy with the fact that I became one of those highly social guys.

Here's what I want from 2013-

-XXX a day from my online businesses. This will allow me to truly become independent, travel as much as I want, and live a PIMP life. I've set the foundations, I literally could be making that much in a month if I keep focused on my current projects.
-Fuck a good amount of hot girls and make the transition into the guy who gets hot women naturally. Go out an average of 4 nights a week through the year with preferably a 90 day challenge in the summer.
-Learn Spanish, I need to do this. I tried for a bit earlier this year but gave up.
-Work out 3 times a week consistently, this is one extra habit I need to stick on hard.
-Make some close guy friends at my Uni that I can be 100 percent cool with.

@tolle:

January 2nd night-

Hit up usual Wednesday spot. Hip hopnight at a hipster bar.

My buddy Gravity just came back from NYC hanging with Distant Light. I’m curious to see what he’s been doing. I see him and he’s just having a shit ton of fun dancing and being crazy with girls around him. Dance with him and just go crazy. It’s a shitton of fun while I’m doing it and puts me in a good fun mood.
Hit up a cute blondie, and she gives me the big wide eyes. But I get punked by some RSD dude I don’t know. I was surprised, tried to keep her but it was a half-hearted effort. Can’t let that happen again, I know how to respond in this situation (claw her and turn her away) so there’s no excuse for it.

Go to the bar area to talk to some chicks. Hit up this hipster girl with hipster glasses. She does Art History, I tease her for being a walking stereotype and she says she doesn’t judge me at all and I pull in her for a hug. Her friend pulls her away at this point and I figure I’ll hit her up later. I fuck up and don’t reapproach her later as she’s constantly with 3-4 girls. No excuse though, I gotta hit up girls again as that is a huge part of my training. Funny how re-approaching is the new Approach anxiety, it requires a significant amount of willpower while approaching isn’t that hard. I’m sure with steady effort, and exposure to re-approaching girls I’ll get over it.

I approach a hot Asian girl. She’s a flipina and the first thing that comes to mind is the Flipino VA who works for 1.11 a hour for me lol. I tell her I hire Flipinos and they are pretty decent workers. She says she’s a good worker. I tell her I’d pay her 2 bucks/hour. I tell her I’ll only fire her when she fucks up twice. She kind of evades me after that. I re-approach her later and some brown guy comes in between us and tries to white knight. Should have plowed through cause I’m pretty sure she likes me but just needs to experience more time chilling with me. That brown guy would not have done anything lol.
I approached two girls and some white knight pushes me away. I accuse him of being a white knight and tell him its not illegal to talk to girls. I’m pretty sure he didn’t even know them and the friend of the girl did that. Fucking immature girls and douchebags. Whatever, I leave, I’m a bit shaken but tell the bouncer that guy is aggressive and to watch him. Kind of knocks me of center though.

Another notable set was approaching two girls. Asked one her name and she’s like “buy me a drink”. I respond “Do I look like a fucking ATM”. “Do I have a an ATM sign on me”. Her and her friend go away.
Go home.
Realize I’m having trouble focusing on the steps I need to do because of the partying I have done. Meditated 20 minutes today. Green shakes + 40-50 minutes of meditation + working on biz over the next few days to focus my mind so I can improve rapidly and take the steps I need to. Also focus on being chill and having a great baseline vibe instead of being high energy because that always goes away quickly. Going to focus on leading hard as per Manwhore’s instructions.

@tolle:

Skipped Thursday night, napped through from 9 pm - 1 am. Fail haha. Whatever though, got a good amount of business work done.

Friday night-

Went to our Friday spot.

Initially I get in, start to relax a bit(always takes a few minutes after walking in from the freezing weather to just loosen myself up).

Warming up was kind of bumpy. I kind of remember doubting my own mental headspace. Then I reminded myself I've had many excellent nights starting out feeling like this.

The first few interactions were really bumpy.

My buddy Gravity is there. We dance a shitton Distant Light style. Really good for just having a fun time and creating pre-selection cause the girls see how awesome you are.

Do some opens. Open up some girl who goes to a school and I diss the school. Her friend says something about me being mean even though she likes me. Then my friend accidently shoves me and they drop some of their drink. Chaos lol and we just leave to come back in a bit.

Some more opens, remember playing 30 second game with my friend. I was using my scarf to claw girls in. Was telling them how amazing it is. I was being quite ADD though and not pushing sets hard.

Anyways eventually realize this. I go back into the the two girls I opened before, just fuck around with them with the scarf. Girl tries to steal but I take it back. I fucked up by not getting physical and dancing with her.

I think it is because I was running on a sort of "state" instead of naturally being comfortable with physicality by doing the process of warming up by hugging girls and manhandling them. This girl was hot too so I was far too happy being all fun guy instead of showing my dick and risking the validation from a hot girl being stripped away(some faggot shit). Some gay stuff but I'm trying out new stuff instead of the usual so that is why I still am struggling to apply the fundamentals while doing this whole "fun guy thing". Lesson learned though- More important to hit black nimbus and a state of relaxation before doing any crazy dancing fun shit.

More opens. I find some cute Asian girl. Her friends are gone. I get physical by pulling her in for hugs, tell her she's cute. Try to makeout with the girl but she pulls her cheek away(gotta remember I dont have to makeout with girls to fuck them, as Manwhore said). I remember the last session I had with Manwhore where he told me to lead for pointless bullshit. I see my friends and I'm like "lets go meet my friends". Take her there. Teach her how to fake rap to hip hop and have a 15-20 minute interaction.

The one huge flaw in my physical game I noticed was that I really rely on dancefloor grinding game to build sexual tension and up the girls buying temperature. This girl was uncomfortable with typical grinding and sucked shit at it too. I noticed the interaction lost steam as I didn't keep the dynamic physcality and leading going because at this stage I'm usually used to just dancing with a girl and then talking to her. Lesson learnt, dont really on dancefloor game.

Didn't get the number cause she didn't have a phone, pretty sure I lost it at the end. I was distracted too cause the hot girl from before was going by and I basically stopped trying. The asian girl got dragged away by her friend. Failed there by not playing to the hilt.

I hit the hot girl up, she hugs me and runs away outside lol. I don't know what the fuck was going on.

Positives-

-Did some leading(not amazing but I did consciously do that).
-Reapproached the one hot girl a few times.
-Worked massively on my ability to dance well and generate a fun vortex Distant Light style which could be an useful skill for college parties.

Lessons and shit I need to work on-

-The crazy dancing thing is a double edged sword, on one hand it makes me feel amazing and makes girls far more receptive to being approached by me, on the other hand it takes away from my strong focus on taking the interaction forward. I have just experimented with this shit but I have learned to use it sparingly and only after I've warmed up to taking risks and not caring about female validation(by getting a couple of harsh blowouts). I know Distant Light does this shit without any desire for validation, but that's cause his inner game is at that level. Its a great side skillset though, and even though its not what I should be focused on I had to try it out just because I'm not going to see Gravity's style in my college town.
-Reapproach more girls and push interactions harder.
-Dynamic physicality, manhandling, and CONSTANT LEADING. Leading is the big one, that's the one thing I need to work on to make it completely natural.
-Do not rely on dance game.
-Fuck Validation, and fuck entitlement. Trust I'm enough to get the hottest girls(I know I am). I can consciously control my body and calm myself down to Manwhore's training, there's no reason why I should think "Oh I'm not warmed up enough for this girl". I should never be afraid to lose their validation in order to actually get what I want(to get laid).

@tolle:

Wrote up a long ass update but lost it accidently.... fuck. Nothing exciting but hard work and progress and a lot of going out sober. I know going out sober instead of getting drunk with friends will pay off next year massively, so I'm gonna put in the time now for 4-5 nights a week sober out at night and gain the fruits later.

Also I've decided I"m gonna avoid my existing social circles when I"m going out by going to completely different venues. It doesn't help my growth if I"m playing for validation instead of actually working on improving myself. This journey's tough but somebody's gotta do it.

Anyways here's the main things I need to work on recently
-meditate every single day 20 min at least.
-Proper venue selection.
-Persist in set, lead, and reapproach. Three important skills.
-Man to woman with older chicks(don't fall into the friendly convo frame).

@tolle:

To elaborate on last night's post I"m basically going "Hard" mode. I've realized getting drunk and possibly hooking up with a cute girl may be cool, but I'd rather get good at the game dead sober even if it means a couple of months of nothing. I've been going out sober and I also have been by myself a lot. I dont feel a dependence on wings as I can now walk into the venue and do a couple of warmups before my wings arrive which is cool.

Today was Sunday, so just stayed home. I'm going to track my daily habits so I have a place online to keep track of everything.

Today I-

-Worked out.
-Did my business class homework.
-Made 40$ writing articles. Another 37.5$ from a SEO order. Total profit of 77.5$ today. Not bad. I need to keep this going and I can get back to coaching with Manwhore.
-Ate relatively healthy other than a 6 inch late night Sub that was in my fridge. I've decided I'm gonna get a steak salad every time I'm at Subway to avoid the bread which slows down my brain.
-Meditated for 16 minutes, didn't do any longer cause I was very tired and about to feel asleep in my chair. Note to self, meditate earlier in the day at around 12-3 pm when I'm completely fresh. My goal is to hit an average of 30 minutes a day which I"ve done before(30 min a day is god mode basically).

@tolle:

Daily habits-

Meditated 20 min.
Made 55$ writing articles. Spent 37 on a new SEO thread(77$ split between me and my biz partner for a WickedFire Thread). My old thread had expired. So thats 18 $ in profit today.
Did a good amount of schoolwork.

Didn't go out tonight because there's a wind chill of -15 F outside on a Mon night.

@tolle:

Tuesday-

Meditated 20 min.
Made 30$ today writing and 1 SEO order that I gave away for cheap in exchange for review.

Slacked hard today, need to make 50$ a day at least.

Wednesday-

Habits-
20 Minutes of Meditation. Got really into it, its like meditation momentum building up. Going to go for 30 min tomorrow.
36 dollars made writing articles. Kind of meh. Did quite a bit of work on my SEO project tho.
Did basically no schoolwork today. Meh. Archer has me distracted. Such a good fucking show but a timesink too.

Nightgame-

Met up with my wing downtown. We both walk and we're kind of nervous. I start unwinding a little by relaxing my body etc. Do our first approach together and talk to two girls for a few minutes.

Chode around longer, then we take turns approaching. Talk to some cute girl in a jacket. I'm internally nervous but its going pretty good until I hear she's 4th year. I need to stop letting girls ages affect me internally just because I'm younger. I gotta keep my own boss daddy frame. I simply have to accept that I connect well with slightly older girls and I can't think thoughts like "oh she thinks i'm too young" etc. All complete fucking bullshit. She leaves.

Talk to a blonde girl with her friend who's a private investigator at a hotel. Kind of get confused by her. Reappraoch her later and I find out she's serious about it. Didn't stick in. Ugh. That was my main thing tonight, for some reason I just wasn't sticking in. I think its because I didn't keep the right mindset before walking(stay in set, get physical) so was being a pussy all night. No other way to say it, I was being a fucking pussy tonight and it was fucking pathetic. That's my main thing, I keep sabotaging my own efforts for some reason.

See some girl in a bday tiara thing with 5 of her friends. Pull her in, hug her. Talk random shit. Her friends pull her away should have stuck in though she liked me.

Approach a super cute Asian girl with hipsterish glasses. Accuse her of being quarter hipster and "hipster in denial". But my friend already has his coat and I leave the set.

Anyways I don't know what happened tonight, I just was feeling massive resistance to staying in there. No idea why. Just got to push through it next time I feel it. Usually I'm more persistent but for some reason I was being a complete pussy tonight.

Lessons-
-Fuck the resistance, stay in set.
-More physicality and dominance. Too much friend to friend and not enough making panties wet.
-Did 6 approaches total in like 1 hour. Approach more next time.
-Grind with chicks and rub my boner on them to get me horny and into a sexual state.

@tolle:

Fucking cold tonight. Go out at 1 deg F. Did my 20 min of meditation.

I find the first few approaches take me like 40 minutes, but then I'm good and approach a lot. This club has stunners all over the place. Its a lot easier once I get warmed up cause they are all University students so its not like I need to intimidated by them considering I"m so much more mature.

Tonight was pretty decent, stuck in set, got some blowouts, some girls liked me, danced with a chick. Its funny how beginning of the night I'm all intimidated and shit, but as soon as I get the first few in I feel comfortable.

Not getting phsyical enough. Need to bring that manhandling and dominance. I know how to do, I've done it in the past, and I do it occasionally but it needs to be consistent. Gotta put myself on the line and escalate physically, and dance with chicks.

My verbal game and vibe are great enough that it gets it me in with a good amount of cuties, but I never play the interaction to the hilt. I'll do some little bullshit physical escalation like spinning the girl or hugging them. I need to get the interaction super sexual ASAP. Its like when I"m drunk I don't have issues with that, but when I'm sober its way fucking harder for me to do that. Whatever though that's not an excuse, I still got to push my comfort zone regardless.

Dancefloor game is the way to go for college chicks, me and my wing have decided we're gonna focus mostly on dancefloor game from tonight. These girls all go out to get laid, its just that you have to spike up BT a bit, build some comfort and you're good to go.

Gameplan-

Hit up a few approaches to warm up, then hit the dancefloor. Dancefloor game is this- I approach, dance with a chick, try to makeout(to turn myself on, not to turn her on, it puts me into state), talk with her and make her love my charisma, lead to the bar/ different part of the club(leading is key). Physical game is the key.

Do you talk with your hands at all? Or use your body in any way to communicate things?? I do, 100% of the time. I use my entire body to express a point at all times. I think learning to express yourself in this way, will also help you incorporate grabbing girls and being physical with them a lot easier.

I do a little. Like I don't have my hands on my side, I'm usually doing things with my hands instead of just having them hang on the side. Tonight the escalation was a lot better, IMO when I do it consciously its good, otherwise I slack off. Also I gotta focus on it being natural instead of a shtick by just being a more naturally physical guy in social settings(like with female friends).

Went out tonight. Solo. And sober. I literally had a sip of rum and coke from someone who offered it at my rez cause he was like "you look sober as shit". Lol. Cabbed it downtown, walked into the bar. There were a couple of people here and there that I knew that I said hi to but I was by myself for game.

The first hour was difficult. First approach took me like 10-15 minutes, adn the next one another 15-20 min. First approach was good, Asian girl, appraoched, and chatted up her whole group and got socially warmed up. Got like 3-4 in the first 45 minutes. At some point though I just start approachign more.

Approach two girls, grab them both and dance and they're like "you want to dance with two girls?". I just dance with one hottie. My friend from rez comes in randomly for a sec, but doesn't wing me. Lol. I lose it cause the other girl is by herself and they leave. Also the fact that the one girl didn't give me a boner while dancing on her.....most white chicks suck shit at dancing lol.

I'm in a good mood then, feeling good about doing well sober and solo. Keep approaching. Approaching a cute blonde. She's drunk but I get physical fast. She looks like Emma Watson but her friends pull her away. See her later and she's way too wasted when I approach lol. Fucking so many people got wasted at this place.

Appraoch some girl, she's walking with her friend so I grab her hand walk with them for a second and intro myself. I should have stuck in cause I was in, but I didn't. Reapproach her later, she's with a guy friend and I feel awkward standing around even though she remembers me so I wander off... Eh should have made convo with both of them. Realize that I need be "sticky".

Downstairs approach a thick blonde chick. Get physical. Damn, she has a great ass. Verbally charm her while being physical, and then I lead her to the dancefloor by saying lets go the dancefloor. Dance for 15 minutes. I try to go for makeout but I don't get it. She leaves for washroom but I got a boner from her(she twerked damn well). I should have led to the bar or somewhere else at around the 10 min point cause the dancing was getting old. I was too stuck trying to feed my ego by attempting a makeout.... whaetver though, still pretty awesome. Got her number but didn't bother texting it cause I knew it was done at that point....

Do some appraoches and call it a night at 1:45 cause I need to get coat check.

Damn, pretty awesome night. Went out solo and sober and basically got into an amazing state. This is the first time I've truly hit that awesome zone when being solo and sober, although previous times I was able to approach while solo and sober. The pieces of the puzzle are coming together in an awesome way.

Positives-
-Danced with two cute girls. Got more physical than last night.
-Pushed through, and got into a great mood while being by myself. Feel amazing about that.
-Reappraoched a few girls girls and worked on fractionation.
-Lead that one girl to the dancefloor.
-Approached a lot of hot girls.

Keep working on-
-A lot of sets I didn't persist hard enough and didn't try hard enough to make it happen.
-I didn't get physical enough on some interactions.
-Leading more frequently.

Sat night rolls on.

My buddy is going to a certain club and he has bottle service.

I decide to hit it up. Get there at 11:30. He's not there yet, do an approach.

He gets in. I slowly warm up, do a few.

He buys me a shot, I'm already warmed up. Gets me another, and then I buy myself one. 3 shots, I have a nice buzz. Do some approaches meanwhile. The problem is that we spend a shitton of time waiting for the bartender cause of the number of people there. Waste of time.

Me and a wing approach a lot tonight. Dance with two cute girls. I try to reapproach one of them later but it doesn't go down.

I go approach a 3 set, the girl is giving me a bit of resistance, I just start grab two of them and start dancing with all of them and dance between them for a bit.

The talent tonight wasnt' that great compared to Thurs night at this place, so I"m gonna avoid this place on Saturdays. Volume is important....

Approach a couple of cute girls, one of them asks me her naem. her friend cockblocks but I didn't get physical with the one girl who asked me her name so it was my fault lol....

Approach a hot hot girl. IMO the hottest in the club. She loves me. Get physical on her and get a boner. Its club girl attraction though. I fuck up cause she's like "I need to go with my friend" and I listen to her and let her go after a couple of minutes. Turns out her friend only took her like 5 feet away lol..... Fail on my part, gotta stop listening to the dumb shit girls say.

I reapproach her later when she's dancing with a chubby friend. Her chubby friend keeps trying to rub against me lol. The hot girl runs away.

My buddys' also trying to mack on her. He reapproaches her again and gets physical. I just go in and steal her from him like a boss(we both wanted her and agreed best man wins). everything is going well but I forgot her name and she runs away yet again. Lol.

I grab my sweater cause I want to walk her out and actually get a real interaction but she dissapears, probably left the club.

I failed in that interaction by not leading hard, and after coming home I realize I should have attempted to bathroom pull her cause she had a ton of attraction for me. Also I didn't have a real conversation with her to find out about her cause I interacted with her only on the dancefloor, at some point I should have pulled to the bar. But it was pretty fucking awesome having this hotty all on me and shit.... next time i'll know how to deal with the situation better.

Hit on some girsl last minute, nothing goes down. Go home and hit some vocal Manwhore drills cause my voice is getting a little weak recently, so I'm getting back to my drills(so important).

Positives-
-Had a shitton of fun.
-Approached hot girls. Getting way more comfortable with them.
-Got physical on a ton of girls.
-Reapproached girls multiple times. Reapproaching girls is becoming very natural.

Need to work on-
-Leading hard. I think that's the main thing missing from my game so I'm going to focus on that entirely this week.

Pretty awesome night, I'm going to go out Monday night for a hour. I did cheat with some alchohol, I'm not drinking again till next Saturday. I'm having realizations as how awesome I am. Next weekend will be epic.

Sounds like you need to be ordering drinks faster and more effectively. When I go to the bar to buy a drink it actually is a DHV for me because the girl watches me walk straight up to the bar, whether it's crowded or not, grab the bartender's attention, and yell them down with what I need. Fast and easy. Demand their attention in a calm, "cool" way and you'll be in and out of there.

That's what I was thinking. I was afraid that doing that would piss him off(I've heard bartenders get pissed off easily) but getting his attention in a cool chill manner is no way rude. I'll do that next time.

Monday night-

Went out to a local bar for a hour. Its not as good as it usually is on Mondays.

He sees some girl from his social circle. She has a fairly ciute friend(cute face but slightly fucked teeth) and I start chatting to her. Some standard usual bullshit(blahbah, where do you study, etc.). All the girls at his college all look white trashy, while the girls in my school are usually much better looking. Its gotten to the point where I can tell from a single glance which school a girls from.

We then do our first approach, my wings girl is cute mine is like a 6. Her guy friend comes in and I'm feeling awkward and I tell her I'm gonna go downstairs.

Talk to my buddy's girl's friend again while he talks to his girl. Find out she likes the same music. I can tell she likes me. They kept hovering near us throughout the night, but my buddy didn't talk to them. Since they were his social circle I just let him take the lead. Later outside I find out he didn't wanna go chill with them cause they wanted to drink, and his girl wanted to fuck for sure. He was avoiding them cause he wanted to stay sober hahah. Lol, I told him the sober challenge doesn't count in this situation cause there's a high chance we'd have hooked up with them. Anyways we'll probably run into them again.

We do more approaches, we're sucking shit cause the deadness of the venue has taken us by surprise. Like we were going in expecting to basically go in "hard" but it wasn't busy enough. So mentally we were unprepared and the approaches we did were awkward as shit. I remember a couple where the girls didn't stop, and a few where we just had a short conversation. Mostly cause of incongruency to our current emotional state because we were pretty much in fun fun mode Wed-Sat.

6 approaches total. Lesson learnt, when it's a dead night switch gears into the correct mode and stop resisting the lack of charisma, intensity, etc. Basically just be cool with normal chill conversation.

Ok hold up.. your buddy didnt want to pull them because he didnt want to drink? That is so incredibly fucking stupid. I call it "Playing to win, but forgetting what winning is."

Lol I know. I thought he was trying to avoid her cause he didn't like her or something......

Completely retarded. But my fault in not pressuring him to talk to them again in the venue. Assumptions are dangerous.

For the increased horniness -there's natural and un natural ways.

Ill stick with the natural way. Losing body fat , staying away from brigeing alcohol , proper sleep is important make sure ur room is dark and u have a proper bed.
This following is the key: take zinc, buy this stuff called supra mira forte from life extension, and get some thyroid support meds.

Alcohol and stress is a bad combination for horniness.
If you follow just three of those should make a big difference.

Yeah man, I've been getting good sleep, avoiding stress, working out, and taking in zinc. I'll check out the other stuff you mentioned too. Also I've been drinking very little alchohol lately.

Also on no fap, day 18 and I'm feeling pretty horny.

Wednesday Night- A Little Bit of Beer = Game Killer

My buddy texts me and says his natural friend is coming... cool.

Get to the venue, meet up with them, I'm in an amazing mood. Just vibing to music.

Anyways his buddy's getting drinks, like 5 small sized beers in those plastic cups...

Just chill while he drinks them. He finishes, I do my first approach, which is meh.

The thing is the natural friend there was kind of making me hesitant to do my usual process in front of him.... Dumb idea.

He buys a couple of beers and insists I take one. Fuck, I don't wanna be a douche so I take it. I drank like 1/4 of it but my awesome meditation + green shakes buzz was kind of destroyed. Left the rest of it somewhere when he wasn't looking. The problem is alchohol doesn't help me unless I have like 3 or 4 drinks, otherwise it just mentally slows me down without any benefits. And that mental slowness kills my game...

Did a good number of approaches, nothing really hooked. I wasn't that focused plus we were in the shitty white trash bar. Some hot girls but queit a few digusting fat chicks. Like eughhh. The good bar for tonight was apparently dead.....

The only one of note was when I approached this girl I talked to like a couple of weeks ago. She remembered. I reapproached and she actually wanted to sit with me but her friend dragged her away. I see her sometimes at this bar so I'll probably run into her again.

Other than that, I was totally off. Also a lot of the time i just spent hanging with my wing and his friend. Last approach of the night was a really hot girl, blowout.

I realized I made two tactical errors tonight-

1. I drank a bit of beer which fucked my clear state of mind. Next time someone offers me alchohol, "I have mono" or "I have to drive". "My religion doesnt' allow me to drink tonight"
2. I spent two much time hanging around with wing and his friend. Just go off on my own and do my own thing.

I realize I don't have bad nights often anymore and when I do its usually because of some sort of tactical error on my part.

Yo.. this shit is on autopilot. 1 beer shouldn't do shit.

Your brain is making excuses for why it didn't have to "wake the FUCK UP". Demand more from yourself bud. Don't give me that gay seasonal disorder dogshit or your lack of a boner. You make boners happen by getting all cozy with a chick. No other way.

Approach girls. Yell at them! You gave yourself an easy way out by saying the beer fucked you up. No. That is not an excuse. Do better next time.

You're right. No excuses. Ultimately I have responsibility for my own emotional state and can't blame it on a substance.

Thursday Night-

People on my floor wanted to go to a bar. I was planning on going out with my buddy for our sober approaching to a different club so I declined.

Went to the club, got there myself. Wing was late.

Had a really hard time doing approaches for the first 1 hour. Did like 4 approaches before my wing came. At one point I did do the black nimbus ritual which helped. I think its because I got caught up in self image(what if people see me get blown out). Can't let that happen.

After my wing came, we started hitting it up with pretty low success.

Got blown out a lot.

Some of those were me not being as persistant as I could have.

Tonight I was working on my dominance. So what I'd do is go up to a girl and say my opener, and as soon as I get eye contact and a response, I"d just grab her in hard. Usually I'd do it more smoothly like grab her hand and spin her in to me but I was focused on basically doing it with more dominance and less smoothness.

I could tell it was sparking attraction, dominance is the shit. One girl kind of freaked out but ran away. The rest of the girls usually were with their friends who would grab them away or something. But I wasn't being persistant enough. Should have verbally ploughed. No wing chemistry tonight, we were both off in coordination.

Danced with one girl for a sec but then I got tooled by a dude(he'd been dancing with her all night tho).

Towards end of night I approached some of the more intimidating girls(tall hot ones). I probably did 15-20 approaches, but I honestly didn't plough through as hard as I could have except in a couple of approaches. Didn't reapproach enough either. Also early in the night I didn't approach the hotties.

Beginning of night I was being a bitch. That sucked cause the venue was its best from 11:30(when I got there) to 1. That's when the least girls had paired of with guys. The fact that it took me till 12:30 to get warmed up is inexcusable because it basically meant that I missed out on the best oppurtunities. The venue started emptying at like 1:15 which sucked. I did approach a lot from 1-2 though but that's when it was the shittiest.

Lessons Learned-
-Dont' let the venue get on top, get hte first 3-5 approaches out of the way ASAP instead of durring around like a faggot.
-Persist harder and try harder with my verbals, can't get lazy with them.
-Keep working on my dominance, it makes panties wet.
-Approach attractive girls early on.

I'm hoping to get my practice in for leading this weekend, last two nights have been a bit tough tho. W.e its all good I always alternate between blowout nights and nights where I improve a ton. The blowout nights make sure I don't get reliant on external validation so I'm cool with them.

Went out tonight.

Went to this one bar. Pretty fucking packed. Too packed at certain places to be honest.

Was there rwith two guys. Anyway night starts off slow.

My third approach my friend pours an ice cube on my hand so I just think on the moment and approach a girl by placing it on top of her head.

She gets super pissed away and pushes me away hard. I didn't even put it down her clothes or anything, just the top of her head, no reason to fucking overreact.

Anyways I start calling her out being like "What the fuck, why are you pushing me".

Her friend comes in and apologizes for her. I walk away a bit rattled. If the friend hadn't come in it would have probably escalted into me telling her to go kill herself, etc.

Anyways I walk around for a bit being pissed.

Negative thought patterns so I meditate in the club for a few minutes to get my center back. Its not amazing but I feel somewhat better.

Do some more approaches, still affected but I have a couple of conversations here and there.

I fucked up by not taking action on my own, was reliant on my wings to push me for a lot of approaches tonight. Didn't take the right action to get into the best mood possible and I kept oscillating between feelilng slightly shitty to slightly good.

Did a really good approach on this one girl who was leaving though, like I approahced her friends and I saw her and I was just like "Wow you're really beautiful" then I told her that was basically me speaking my thoughts aloud. She loved it but they had their coats and were leaving right then....

Winged my friend on this one girl, hugged her and it was going pretty damn good but they had to go. I should have just walked with girls when they had to leave, had a few decent approaches go to waste cause I didn't.

Also should have focused on dancefloor more. My wings dont really do dancefloor game so I didn't but honestly I should have done it my own.

Left at 1:45 cause some people I knew were going home, thus I could cab back and save cash.

I'm not going to lie, tonight honestly felt kind of shit. I didn't push my approaches hard, and I wasn't really into it. IT was like I was going through the motions to do my 10-15 approaches of the night. Some points in the night I'd feel like I was breaking through to a better mood but I never pushed it hard enough to do that.

Strong contrast to last Friday night where I was killing it solo and sober.

Lessons Learned-
-Dont' let shitty people affect my emotional state.
-IF I do experience a state crash, take time to get back to center(which I did) but then hit, hit, hit. I did kindoff get back to center but I didn't really hit it hard, just more like a few here and there.
-Do approaches on my own when my wings aren't there.

Tomorrow night I'm getting drunk for a dorm party.... No pressure on myself, I just want to have fun after sober cold approach. Only focus is on being social and friendly to everyone, introducing myself to anyone I do'nt know, and just giving value. If I hook up its cool, if I don't its cool too. I think I need a break from going out sober lol. Last 12 nights i've been out I've only had alchohol 1 night and I only had like 3 shots that night which just gave me a buzz.

Got done with an exam.

Tonight is drunk night.

Start drinking and go to a friends party at his dorm.

I chat up people there. Pretty cool, I'm just vibing with everyone spreading the love.

In there, 3 girls who like me. 2 of them have bfs and 1 of them I can't find again.....

1 of the girls, we had massive chemistry but she had a bf in another uni, my buddy and I asked her and she confirmed. She said I was awesome, maybe I should have gone for it regardless?? I was huggin her and shit.

Social circle game is so easy lol.

Anyways everyone left to a club.

I went there.

Went and approached everything. pretty fucking drunk.

Built a lot of attraction but didn't stay in set long enough.

One girl I kissed her for like 1 sec(got a peck on the lips). Got her number, she wasn' down for afterparty(I seeded it in interaction though).

Danced with some girls too.

Funniest interacition of night was this Asian girl . Some bfrown guy kept claiming he was her bf. I think he was trolling. I kept dancing with her and rubbing my leg against her vag. She kept saying "he isn't here" when I asked about her bf.

Lol pretty epic. A white guy tried to steal her by claiming he was her bf, I was like "dude this dude already said he was her bf lol". Idk what happened to that interaction, I was pretty fucking drunk but it was epic. I guess I left after some time.

Had some more cool interactions.

Saw one chick I knew hugged her in and I was like "wassup girl". Fuck I should have tried to lead to dancefloor but I didn't. Fail......

Anyways lots of quick interactions throughout the night, too drunk to persist.

Fun night tho, needed a drinking night after so much soberness lol. Back to sober game for the next few nights though(Mon and WEd-Sat).

Lessons-

Ignore bfs and don't ask about them.
-Stay in set.
-get gum when you're drunk. My breath was fine beginning of night but thats cause I brushed and shit, alchohol always make your breath smell bad so I made a mistaek not carrying it with me tonight(usually I have gum.

P.s It was -2 F outside and I wore 1 leather jacket only lol. beast mode.

-My social circle game is pretty awesome after going out sober, but I should have been chatting up the hotter girls in there. If I keep going out sober for cold approach, my social circle drunk game is just gonna keep getting better. I definately would have hooked up with that one girl if she didn't have a bf. The problem with being drunk is suck at tactically deciding the steps I need to do, For example the one girl at the club i kissed, i should have led her around instead of taking her number.

My drunk game will be amazing once I get my sober game down completely and I'm good at managing logistics, leading, etc. Right now that's my main weakness as I can build attraction super easily but I suck at leading and logistics.

On the way back I saw a chick I knew, she's ok. She wanted to take a cab with her friend and me, I got physical with her on the street and she grabbed my waist so I was like "pull oppurtunity". Her friend was with a dude but the dude was a retard who didn't know how to pull.

Like it was -2 F and his apartment was 2 blocks away and the girls were down to go there. I even hinted at him, being like dude lets go warm up there. Idiot. I cab back with them, and then I had to take a piss really badly and some random dude was getting signed in by my girl, Basically someone we knew asked her to sign the dude in. Basically was taking forever so I just went upstairs to take a piss.

I think I should have seeded the pull in the taxi cab... Doing it last second isn't the best idea.

Didn't go out Tn cause I had shitty time managment and realized I had my comp sci assignment to do....

My best friend is coming. He's insane and he's the boss of social circle game. Back when I was a virgin who hadn't kissed a girl he helped me get two girls back to his room at his dorm and I madeout with both of them in his college. Basically we always get into crazy advenuters whenever we hang out, ranging from badass and cool Korean Rednecks with shotguns and assault rifles, to getting involved with ex-drug lords who now run legal restaurants. I dont even care about getting laid lol we're just gonna do some dumb shit.

Oh and I haven't jacked off in 25 days and I'm insanely horny. I've instructed him to not let me hook up with any fatties.

In other news I have made 155 dollars in the last 24 hours. I'm still in a shitty financial situation cause of all the money I poured into the other project but thats gonna shoot above ground fairly soon enough. FIRST 150 DOLLAR DAY WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
#BALLING #AWESOME

Wish me luck for the next 3 days. This is gonna be epic. We've decided we are gonna start drinking as soon as he gets here until Saturday night.

I suck at time managment though, right now my brain is shut off in a short term mating strategy awaiting my friend.

Cool man watch how he has fun and learn to do it with yourself. The things that amuse him, the level they amuse him on, what he chooses to feed on the environment around him and plays with it. Basically learn to start having the same fun he's having when he goes out.

Not jacking off isn't the right answer. Believe me, in the correct circumstances, your dick will ALWAYS work. It's motivation, a sense of certainty, and following through no matter what.. that will make you go after girls, not being sufficiently horny enough.

Remember.. Phase 1, then Phase 2. It's so fucking easy. Stop being outcome dependent.. roll the fuck up on people and the environment without "trying", or needing to be "accepted", and your mouth will work the right way and people will respond to you the same way. Duh. That's the secret of seduction. It's the same as the real secret to leading. You have to meet people where they're at before you can take them somewhere else, e.g. seduction.

In other words people want to go out and have a good time and be carefree.. you need to meet them there (at least the hot ones) and lead them somewhere else. Like a dark private place you can impale them on your meat pole.