My personal experience with getting SUPER HIGH! can anyone relate? ( A Manwhore Coaching Weekly Report)

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Tue, 10/01/2013 - 02:37

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This is actually part of my weekly write up for MW, and I thought all you guys would enjoy it. It really show's how deep MW's coaching program really goes, it's just about girls but its about YOUR FUCKING LIFE BRUHH

Very, very interesting week for me. I went up to my cousins college. I'm on a shit load of meds for a stomach infection so I decided not to drink, I ended up smoking A SHIT TON of weed. The craziest things started to happen. I became almost stuck in myself. I could barely talk. All my insecurities and social anxiety was right in my face. My thoughts and fears were so loud and obnoxious inside my head. Also, it felt like everyone was watching me and judging me. There were points where I would pretty much hallucinate that my fears were coming true. For example, I was so afraid the RA was gonna come in the dorm and bust us, that I thought I kept on seeing the door opening, but it truly wasn't.

I started sending a series of text messages to myself about experiences I was having and how I was learning.

"I must stay centered to stop the insecurities"

My thoughts were so loud that the only way to stop them was to focus on my breathing. When I focused on my breathing everything went still, but anytime I stopped or forgot to focus on my breathing, my internal dialogue would literally bombard me with absolute craziness.

"Stay physical, come out of your head"

Another method that stopped the internal dialogue was becoming extremely physical. Dancing, flaring my arms around, anything that was really self expressive cleared my mind. I had to suck the energy out of my head, and let it flow throughout my entire body by movement.

"Be positive"

I was scared for a long time. I had to drive a group of people to another party at the college over, and I was thinking about the worst possibilities. Then I realized, being positive stops fear in its tracks. I kept on doing positive affirmations and my reality was becoming that positivity I expressed. I ended up driving to the other college just fine and went to another party.

"Lead nigga! It's for you"

This text was important. The weed made everything seem like eternity,walking 3 flights of stairs felt like walking 20! Anyhow, I started doing a lot of people watching as it was hard to really talk to people. I started to realize how indecisive and "in the dark" most people really are. Every once and a while I was able to ask my buddies questions such as, "where do you guys wanna go", "what time should we leave"," who should we meet up with?." I started to realize that asking them to lead or to make decisions was incredibly stupid. They just didn't have the mindset to lead, they thought things would just happen, which in most cases isn't true. I realized that I'm the social context, I was the one that had the tools and responsibility to choose where we go and what we do. I was searching for someone to fill in the blanks all night, I wanted to know what the plan was,and then I realized I was the one that had to do this.

"There are two different worlds, in and out"

The weed really made the internal world and external world clear to me. I realized that the internal world felt so constricted, it was dictated by complete ego bullshit and irrational beliefs. I couldn't express myself at all. Then I realized how great the external world was, when I really focused on the beautiful women and great people around me. I was being a big time people watcher, I don't remember approaching anyone really, because my internal dialogue was still eating away at me. So I decided to just become observant, I picked up on the subtle qualities and actions "alphas" were expressing. I also picked up on the deep insecurity in the faces of many people, this was somewhat sad. At one point I was standing in the middle of a a big house party, literally doing nothing but looking around. Drunk people bumping into me left and right, I was staying physically grounded not moving for anyone and just focusing on my breathing. This was kinda cool, and I noticed how people around the room actually started looking at me and smiling, my presence was really there.

"Nobody cares, they don't even pay attention"

I was insecure all night about stupid stuff, like people seeing that I was sending myself text messages all night!. Then I came to the conclusion that the fears weren't real. Nobody watches me that closely to even make any sort of judgement, and if they did, who cares. The weed at some points made me think people were talking about me behind my back, then I'd become present and listen...they didn't even know I was there! How silly of a fear I thought to myself.

"The no think produces the best results"

I found that night that when I worried about what I was gonna say or do, it would eventually come out awkward. The smoothest most authentic stuff I did came from a place of free will and lightheartedness, it had nothing to do with the thoughts in my head.

"Stop forcing"

All night I had this urge that I felt "fake". Weird enough I realized that what I was wearing made me feel this way. I was wearing some big soled construction boots with jeans and a thick pullover. I also hadn't shaved for week, so I had an older college look going!. This whole outfit just screamed of insecurity. I was wearing the boots to seem taller, I was wearing the thick clothes to seem bulkier and muscular, and I was trying to look older as well. I'm a smaller guy, but nothing to get worked up about. I also looked just as old and the freshman and sophomores, stupid limiting beliefs! Deep down I just wanted to take this outfit off, it was constricting me, creating yet another barrier that made it harder to truly express myself. I just wanted to be myself again! The moral of the story is not to watch what you wear, thats bullshit, it doesn't matter what your wearing. I learned that when you put up a facade because you want people to perceive you a certain way, you end up feeling "lost".

"Over thinking kills"

Over thinking anything will haunt you, It will put you in a state of misery.A leader makes the best and the most obvious decision right away, the one that feels right. Even if it seems scary at first.

"Timeless"

All night I was concerned with time, what time the party was at?, what time would I be home?... This sucked the life out of me, I was worrying about time instead of enjoying the fabulous NOW that was right in front of me.

"I don't want time to pass without actually living"

This was the heavy hitter. I was pretty depressed when I wrote this, but also also hopeful. I realized that my internal dialogue literally tortured me at some points of that night. It was hell. Even though my internal dialogue isn't as nearly noticeable sober, it still had been hurting me. I hadn't been truly "living" enough in life. There is so much abundance out there, great people, opportunities, experiences to have, lessons to learn, etc. If you stay stuck in your head, you will never get to experience the greatness of the moment at its highest glory!

Tue, 10/01/2013 - 02:39

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Grammer nazi's beware, there

Grammer nazi's beware, there are errors :)

Tue, 10/01/2013 - 02:48

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Simple solution: "Don't smoke

Simple solution:

"Don't smoke weed."

Tue, 10/01/2013 - 03:13

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Weed is great for collapsing

Weed is great for collapsing ALL bullshit rationalizations.. this is why it makes people paranoid, because the fake internal world paradigm they built comes under close scrutiny by default (it can't be stopped), and it falls away, so they're forced to actually examine their own internal workings. And it scares the fuck out of them.

Once you get past that, you can start to access other parts of your brain as well as different facets of your personality that are many times downplayed in the "real world", or even suppressed.

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Tue, 10/01/2013 - 03:27

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Once upon a time, I was

Once upon a time, I was trippin balls from shrooms and had similar experiences.

It was like a spirit journey or some shit... with mermaids, grapefruit juice, juggling oranges and a 60's rock soundtrack. I also took a 2 hour long bubble bath like a little kid. It probably sounds retarded. It's a very fond memory though.

It's tough to describe but I kinda became seperated I guess from everything you listed. Like I was aware of it, but it wasn't me. It gave me a lot of perspective.

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Tue, 10/01/2013 - 05:33

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Really amazing experience

Really amazing experience bro. Glad you had it

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Tue, 10/01/2013 - 14:45

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I experienced the same shit

I experienced the exact same shit almost everytime i blazed and its what drove me to quit. Funny how alot of people have a completely awesome experience smoking weed and others just wig the fuck out. Any thoughts on why that is?

Tue, 10/01/2013 - 16:30

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Yep pretty much every time I

Yep pretty much every time I smoke it just makes my mind run 100mph and irritates the fuck outta me after a couple of hours. One positive experience after I read this book on quantum physics is that I started to experience time as a probable reality surface: ie I could feel each nanosecond becoming a new reality. Usually I just eat a shitload of junkfood and don't learn anything though, but your write-up of your experiences has definitely given me a way to learn from next time.

Mdma is the only drug that's really worked for me, but there came to a point where I didn't need it anymore

Tue, 10/01/2013 - 17:33

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MDMAis stupid as fuck. Any

MDMAis stupid as fuck. Any designer drug is absolutely retarded. It fucks with the chemicals in your brain and gives you a fake sort of high, that while potent, makes you feel like shit the next day. Business insider just released a story on how 80-90% of MDMA the DEA gets is completely different.

http://www.businessinsider.com/most-molly-is-something-else-2013-9

Tue, 10/01/2013 - 20:52

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I just explained Mark.

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Tue, 10/01/2013 - 22:55

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Manwhore wrote: Weed is great

Manwhore wrote:

Weed is great for collapsing ALL bullshit rationalizations.. this is why it makes people paranoid, because the fake internal world paradigm they built comes under close scrutiny by default (it can't be stopped), and it falls away, so they're forced to actually examine their own internal workings. And it scares the fuck out of them.

Once you get past that, you can start to access other parts of your brain as well as different facets of your personality that are many times downplayed in the "real world", or even suppressed.

that sounds wicked. Actually makes me want to try weed. Never have before, didn't really have the desire until recently.

Tue, 10/01/2013 - 22:56

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TrickAssMark wrote: I

TrickAssMark wrote:

I experienced the exact same shit almost everytime i blazed and its what drove me to quit. Funny how alot of people have a completely awesome experience smoking weed and others just wig the fuck out. Any thoughts on why that is?

This experience was in no way enoyable. I did freak the fuck out, but it was an important situation because I learned a shit load.

Tue, 10/01/2013 - 22:59

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Manwhore wrote: Weed is great

Manwhore wrote:

Weed is great for collapsing ALL bullshit rationalizations.. this is why it makes people paranoid, because the fake internal world paradigm they built comes under close scrutiny by default (it can't be stopped), and it falls away, so they're forced to actually examine their own internal workings. And it scares the fuck out of them.

Once you get past that, you can start to access other parts of your brain as well as different facets of your personality that are many times downplayed in the "real world", or even suppressed.

hmmm.. now that I've learned to center myself while I'm high, maybe it will start being beneficiall WITHOUT freaking me the fuck out

Wed, 10/02/2013 - 00:03

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G-Money wrote: MDMAis stupid

G-Money wrote:

MDMAis stupid as fuck. Any designer drug is absolutely retarded. It fucks with the chemicals in your brain and gives you a fake sort of high, that while potent, makes you feel like shit the next day. Business insider just released a story on how 80-90% of MDMA the DEA gets is completely different.

http://www.businessinsider.com/most-molly-is-something-else-2013-9

I found it useful because it gets rid of boundaries and shows you how to fully express yourself, but using it more than once is massively retarded, so I stopped for the reasons you said

Wed, 10/02/2013 - 07:26

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Meow wrote: TrickAssMark

Meow wrote:

TrickAssMark wrote:

I experienced the exact same shit almost everytime i blazed and its what drove me to quit. Funny how alot of people have a completely awesome experience smoking weed and others just wig the fuck out. Any thoughts on why that is?

This experience was in no way enoyable. I did freak the fuck out, but it was an important situation because I learned a shit load.

Yeah, i meant you and I are the ones freaking out.

Wed, 10/02/2013 - 07:26

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Meow wrote: TrickAssMark

Meow wrote:

TrickAssMark wrote:

I experienced the exact same shit almost everytime i blazed and its what drove me to quit. Funny how alot of people have a completely awesome experience smoking weed and others just wig the fuck out. Any thoughts on why that is?

This experience was in no way enoyable. I did freak the fuck out, but it was an important situation because I learned a shit load.

Yeah, i meant you and I are the ones freaking out.

Wed, 10/02/2013 - 07:27

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Manwhore wrote: I just

Manwhore wrote:

I just explained Mark.

Cool, do you smoke MW?

Wed, 10/02/2013 - 10:08

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Who knows.. maybe I'm

Who knows.. maybe I'm smoking.. right.. now.

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- Called Off My Wedding & Other Turn Tail Signs Of The American Male

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Wed, 10/02/2013 - 10:17

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Manwhore wrote: Who knows..

Manwhore wrote:

Who knows.. maybe I'm smoking.. right.. now.

Marijuanawhore

Wed, 10/02/2013 - 19:53

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I don't like getting stoned

I don't like getting stoned as I like to be able to move and talk. But a GOOD high is dope. Def enjoy getting high, and enjoy getting high even more when I'm fairly drunk. Not too drunk as then I get the spins and it is all bad news from there, but drunk and still there. I find weed brings balance to me there and I feel more sober. Anyone dabble with white girl?