Pre-Coaching check-in of glory!

I've read a bunch of forum threads by users reviewing the Skype coaching program after having tried it. What I haven't seen so much of are "before" the coaching posts, well that's me. I begin Skype coaching this week. I just thought I'd get on here and share a little bit about me with the intention of updating it after having been on the program for awhile. I'm a mid thirties guy with a bit of an unusual story:

I have a girlfriend who is hot, bisexual and awesome. She and I have had a number of threesomes together and she is down for more and is fine with me seeing other girls. Up until a year or so ago I'd been sleepwalking through life a little bit. Sort of unconsciously acquiring things that I thought I wanted in life, big house, big income, hot gf.. A year or so ago I had what, at the time, I thought of as an " awakening", but have now come to view it as an epiffany. I had acquired in life a lot of what I thought I wanted, yet I was unfulfilled. I had a vision in my head of two circles put together like an infinity symbol. On the right was a positive feedback loop of positive things which I have since learned to label as; positive emotions, abundance, entitlement etc. on the left was a cycle of shame, guilt, anxiety, fear. Each half was a self fulfilling generator which keeps pumping out more of whatever fuels it. I realized that I was on the negative side of the thing and that the cycle would continue perpetually unless I could throw a wrench in it, jump the track and get over to the other side. My journey began there, the past year has had some extreme ups and downs; highs like epiphany of self developement, attracting new and amazing friends and mentors into my life, lows like massive crises in my business that demanded extreme action in order to avoid massive financial losses as well as to keep everyone out of jail, also a severe accident for my gf which resulted in massive trauma, more than 20 breaks in her body including her back, torn spleen and lung damage which could have easily paralyzed her or worse (she has been working with a trainer who coaches fighters in the 6 months since and is now more ripped than ever, fucking amazing woman!)

In the years leading up to "the epiphany" I had gotten pretty detached both physically and emotionally from most people. I live in a somewhat remote mountainous part of bc, Canada. I live on a big and private piece of land just outside the city. I have way-too long, and way-too much been enjoying a way-too comfortable lifestyle. In my early twenties I rode my edge pretty hard and I guess when I achieved a certain level of abundance I just stopped. The past year has been a struggle with sometimes severe social anxiety, which is very new and strange to me, as well as just getting comfortable in general with being outside my comfort zone again in social situations. Currently I am climbing a curve and feel myself clawing my way out of the panic attacks that came with the anxiety and am starting to feel much more comfortable out and being social. A typical night out is me relying on the crutch of my girl and social circle, maybe a few approaches where I have been failing yet recently improving to get "man to woman" with my communication. Just this past week actually has been a avast improvement. Clawing girls in, a makeout the other night with a pretty cute yoga instructor, I feel big changes happening. I am still fully situationally confident, have approach anxiety, especially with the hotties, and am constantly feeling like I am going to run out of things to say.

Just wanted to say hi, I've been reading some of your stuff here and I have a lot of respect for you guys taking steps to lead the life you want and boldly stepping out of your comfort zone to get it. More to come.