shitty night was shitty
Sun, 10/21/2012 - 12:40
Let me start off by saying i'm drunk AF and super pissed.
French girl from the "She wants it" thread showed up with 3 of her friends at a buddy's house. They're all sober and i'm already buzzed. They had a couple of shots whiskey but it wasn't enough to get them jumping all over the house. 2 of her hot friends bounce across the street to go see some guy they met across 2 weeks ago.... fuck you. I managed to isolate her for a sec but her friend followed us like a baby sheep. Fast forward we separated at a party, She asked me where i'm at. However she was more concerned about her friend and trying to find more alcohol. She tells me we'll meet next week but right now i'm like fuck it. So much for a pull >:(
Later tonight my buddy AJ called me out, like i'm able to hook girls but never really able to close or get day 2s. "I see you talk to all these hundred girls but where they at" is what he said, I must say it hit me pretty hard. Something seems to be off in the middle of my interactions FRACK.
I got a few numbers tonight but i'm honestly skeptical. I also met this Redhead whom i formed a genuine connection with, you only get few of them. Not only did I forget her name but i did NOT save her contact in my phone.... Mother of baby Jesus, FUCK. To me she wasn't just someone on my phone roster list. Anyways I went chasing AJ asking him to remind me of her name many times before saving the contact. Well i went back into my phone and probably cancelled my attempt to save her contact.
I asked him because he talked to her last before me. Him and his birthday boy started pulling some bro-code bullshit because towards the end i pulled her away from him, which seemed like a cock block. Biotch she was MINE from the get-go. He honestly thought she shooed me away when i was actually purposefully ejecting at the climax of our interactions. I was giving her room to breathe to go talk to other people then come back, instead of sticking on her all night which was fantastic.
Anyways i know there's going to be more girls, but when you encounter a girl like that, then make a mistake like I did, you feel like chopping off your own dick because you feel you don't deserve one. Solo out here in Santa Barbara is hard, especially when you have to wing with knuckleheads full of social conditioning non-sense "no you can't be saying that to girls! blah blah blah"
I lack motivation and haven't done day game in at least 3 months, since the day i brought that HB9 to the movie theaters and fucked up big time.
Right now I feel like fuck everyone, my life and everything, i'm going to sleep.
French girl from the "She wants it" thread showed up with 3 of her friends at a buddy's house. They're all sober and i'm already buzzed. They had a couple of shots whiskey but it wasn't enough to get them jumping all over the house. 2 of her hot friends bounce across the street to go see some guy they met across 2 weeks ago.... fuck you. I managed to isolate her for a sec but her friend followed us like a baby sheep. Fast forward we separated at a party, She asked me where i'm at. However she was more concerned about her friend and trying to find more alcohol. She tells me we'll meet next week but right now i'm like fuck it. So much for a pull >:(
Later tonight my buddy AJ called me out, like i'm able to hook girls but never really able to close or get day 2s. "I see you talk to all these hundred girls but where they at" is what he said, I must say it hit me pretty hard. Something seems to be off in the middle of my interactions FRACK.
I got a few numbers tonight but i'm honestly skeptical. I also met this Redhead whom i formed a genuine connection with, you only get few of them. Not only did I forget her name but i did NOT save her contact in my phone.... Mother of baby Jesus, FUCK. To me she wasn't just someone on my phone roster list. Anyways I went chasing AJ asking him to remind me of her name many times before saving the contact. Well i went back into my phone and probably cancelled my attempt to save her contact.
I asked him because he talked to her last before me. Him and his birthday boy started pulling some bro-code bullshit because towards the end i pulled her away from him, which seemed like a cock block. Biotch she was MINE from the get-go. He honestly thought she shooed me away when i was actually purposefully ejecting at the climax of our interactions. I was giving her room to breathe to go talk to other people then come back, instead of sticking on her all night which was fantastic.
Anyways i know there's going to be more girls, but when you encounter a girl like that, then make a mistake like I did, you feel like chopping off your own dick because you feel you don't deserve one. Solo out here in Santa Barbara is hard, especially when you have to wing with knuckleheads full of social conditioning non-sense "no you can't be saying that to girls! blah blah blah"
I lack motivation and haven't done day game in at least 3 months, since the day i brought that HB9 to the movie theaters and fucked up big time.
Right now I feel like fuck everyone, my life and everything, i'm going to sleep.
Sun, 10/21/2012 - 20:16
#1
Re: shitty night was shitty
@Ghettoguru:
Fuck this AJ guy. I know what you mean though. I have had that same feeling of looking stupid in front of my friends getting rejected but fuck, that has to happen to get good at this. You just cant let that fuck with you. Obviously you will have thoughts like that because you've probably felt like that for a long time, I have, but you gotta stop identifying with them. Continue on with the path and learn to let shit bounce off you like its nothing because it is, nothing. Like Manwhore says, cut ties with all that shit and just be you regardless of what happens.
Fuck this AJ guy. I know what you mean though. I have had that same feeling of looking stupid in front of my friends getting rejected but fuck, that has to happen to get good at this. You just cant let that fuck with you. Obviously you will have thoughts like that because you've probably felt like that for a long time, I have, but you gotta stop identifying with them. Continue on with the path and learn to let shit bounce off you like its nothing because it is, nothing. Like Manwhore says, cut ties with all that shit and just be you regardless of what happens.
Sun, 10/21/2012 - 20:28
#2
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@beargrizz: word. Just keep doing your thing, dude.
Mon, 10/22/2012 - 08:46
#3
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Yeah AJ was making a big deal about the cock block. Then me and his buddy Luis got into a little debate, stupid of me in the 1st place. He was trying to validate his own game when he didn't produce shit that night. Forget going as far as getting laid, I didn't see him do anything worth noting. I think i tried to set him up with this one girl using the fact that it was his b'day as a crutch, but that quickly turned into ashes.
But yeah i cannot wait to start school in January, it would be soooo much easier for me to build a tight social circle. My social circle right now is so-so. Most of them are roomies with each other and see each other on campus regularly. I work and really have no business chasing them on campus. Like you said i'll keep doing my stuff.
But yeah i cannot wait to start school in January, it would be soooo much easier for me to build a tight social circle. My social circle right now is so-so. Most of them are roomies with each other and see each other on campus regularly. I work and really have no business chasing them on campus. Like you said i'll keep doing my stuff.
Mon, 10/22/2012 - 12:28
#4
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Dude you don't own your own life. You're too beholden to these guys. Do you not pay your own rent? Do you stay at a buddy's? What's going on here.
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Mon, 10/22/2012 - 21:24
#5
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Nah i don't live with these guys. Live with my cousin and bf.
I don't pay for my own rent YET. that's bound to change after christmas though. I've saved up enough for 2 month's rent including the ridiculously high desposit rates here in Santa Barbara after being here for 4+ months.
I had to move from Sacramento to here because my uncle who was close by died, so my entire family (i'm talking 12+ aunts and uncles) freaked out and are worried about my safety after the beat up i received among other things. They're your traditional African family, there's the "chief"
I've had to leave all business connections (Cadillac dealership, Life Insurance License which i worked HARD for) i had in Sac to rebuild my life then eventually return with a financial foundation.
And the fact that i'm going back to school and as an independent (uncle/guardian died) will help me financially. I've been out of it for a little over a year now, right after i graduated High school in 2011. Needless to say initially I ended up working low-end jobs and not going very far.
I don't pay for my own rent YET. that's bound to change after christmas though. I've saved up enough for 2 month's rent including the ridiculously high desposit rates here in Santa Barbara after being here for 4+ months.
I had to move from Sacramento to here because my uncle who was close by died, so my entire family (i'm talking 12+ aunts and uncles) freaked out and are worried about my safety after the beat up i received among other things. They're your traditional African family, there's the "chief"
I've had to leave all business connections (Cadillac dealership, Life Insurance License which i worked HARD for) i had in Sac to rebuild my life then eventually return with a financial foundation.
And the fact that i'm going back to school and as an independent (uncle/guardian died) will help me financially. I've been out of it for a little over a year now, right after i graduated High school in 2011. Needless to say initially I ended up working low-end jobs and not going very far.
Tue, 10/23/2012 - 03:01
#6
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Why'd you have to move away from Sac? You should just clown these guys.. you brought the girls and he's still talking shit? That's retarded. Speak with power and conviction. This is such a retarded debate to be having with someone that clearly has no game.
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Tue, 10/23/2012 - 09:34
#7
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I would have nowhere to live lol. I was really in Sac to be with my uncle and finish my last year and a half of highschool. I did that, moved with a buddy. Then I got a mediocre job, settled and got my ass beat; biggest mistake of my life so far :P
I also don't want to associate myself with most people back at my highschool. Aside the fact that i was used to private schools abroad, this school was just terrible and sketchy, mainly because of the students. Fights literally every week, 50%+ of the students are immature, RETARDED potheads.
Plus I was already a little bit familiar with Santa Barbara from visiting my cousin back in the highschool days. It's just a way more active environment.
I also don't want to associate myself with most people back at my highschool. Aside the fact that i was used to private schools abroad, this school was just terrible and sketchy, mainly because of the students. Fights literally every week, 50%+ of the students are immature, RETARDED potheads.
Plus I was already a little bit familiar with Santa Barbara from visiting my cousin back in the highschool days. It's just a way more active environment.
Tue, 10/23/2012 - 10:42
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You need to take more charge of your life the same way you need to take more charge of some of these shithead "friends" that are currently in it. Then when you walk up to a girl, or text her, she feels that Bossness.
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Wed, 10/24/2012 - 06:35
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Yeah i'm definitely in the middle of getting my shit together.
I just had to submit 3 letters to the Fin. Aid director and my chances of getting approved are high.
Next step is to take my placement test for English in November, attend classes late January and move out.
I just had to submit 3 letters to the Fin. Aid director and my chances of getting approved are high.
Next step is to take my placement test for English in November, attend classes late January and move out.
Wed, 10/24/2012 - 06:37
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Sweet.
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