Threesomes gone horribly wrong. Ouch!

I have GOT to get this off my chest before I explode.

I've been with the same girl for 16 years. She's open and absolutely not jealous, so we started having fun with other women YEARS ago.

I was always the one who spent countless hours finding and seducing those girls. Then when we'd fuck, most of the time I was either present but not invited (for real) or after taking care of them for hours and making them come multiple times, no one would take care of me.

My girl told me over a 100 times and many different ways that I had the right to see other women.

When I'd make her come too hard, she'd often say, ''I'm too knocked-ou to make you come. Go get some backup. Call Emily. She'll take care of you. Or Shannon.'' (Those were girls who wanted a piece of me.)

She'd also say in all seriousness, ''I don't mind if you have sex with other girls, because I know you'll come back home to me.'' Or ''I don't care if you fuck other women, but I wouldn't be comfortable with you having another girlfriend.'' Or, ''I can't wait to catch you fucking other women when I come home.''

Then one time she told me twice - while we were fucking and fantasizing - ''I want you to have pleasure with other women. You can do EVERYTHING with them except come, and you can't penetrate them. That's for me ok?''

So I thought, she's conscious that I don't always get my cookie so to speak. That I missed out.

So months later - I wasn't in a hurry -  I met up with a girl and we did something that was well within the rules. Oral. No orgasm. No penetration.

I told my GF the next day and things seemed MORE than ok. She was cheerful all day long. We had a wonderful time.

That night we made love and then I got up to go back out for a walk. Met the same girl. Did the same thing.

Told her again the next morning and then I got a different reaction. She cried and told me that she wasn't happy with what I had done, that I misunderstood her rules. ''What I meant was, you can kiss her (which she knows I don't like doing) and caress her over her clothes. That's it!''

That's pleasure?

So you can do EVERYTHING except orgasm and penetrate her really meant only two things, one of which I dislike: kissing and caressing. Bullshit!

Then she dropped a bombshell, ''I wanted to see if you'd do it.''

I was fucking stunned and spoke up immediately. ''Of course I was gonna do it! You knew that!''

She replied, I never doubted that you'd do it!!

I said, you told me I could do what I did MANY times. She replied, ''Yes, but not with a girl like her.'' Wow.

So there you go. She hogs the girls I work hard to bring home and makes the most of them and doesn't always share with me, and then gives me the impression I can have fun on the side to compensate for this fact... but no.

It was a F'ing trap! Incredible.

She contradicted herself numerous times. All the times she said I could? Those weren't serious conversations. And she forgot she even gave me the right. Years of telling me to fuck other girls. I said that? Me? Nah. My reptilian brain was active. Not my fault. She also said, ''I was teasing you.''

She also claimed that she never said, ''I wanted to see if you'd do it.'' You really think I'd do that to you?

She swore that she wasn't testing me. Riiiiiiiiiight....

In a nutshell, this girl is awesome. But she has a history of lying to me and I just can't live with what happened. I don't accept it. She went overboard and I went past the point of no return. I don't really trust or respect her anymore, and doubt most of what she says.

She gave me a shorter leash and a new list of things I can do, but never told me that it was a serious conversation. I had to ask her twice, ''is this serious or not?'' She stayed silent and stared at me with an angry look. Next morning I asked again, and she erupted. ''Of course it was a serious conversation!''

Well hot damn! A lot of the other convos seemed VERY serious too.

She wants new girls and more threesomes. And she wants me to go get 'em for her. Next time we'll take care of you, she said. HAHAHAHA!

And you know what? I don't feel like it ANYMORE. At all. I don't look at other women now. Couldn't care less for them. This incident turned me off like you wouldn't believe. I rarely feel like fucking her anymore. I have to drink to do it.

What are your thougts? What would you do? It was a test, huh?

Thanks for reading! It felt good to get this out.

Have an awesome day!

-SG

P.S. She said she didn't want me to ask for advice online. To ask her instead. Why would I ask a girl for the truth when she contradicts herself all the time and who wrote in her diary, ''I lie to him constantly''?