LAID: Repeat offender rough in the bathroom. A lesson in caring too much.
Tue, 05/22/2012 - 04:42
Hey guys. I wanted to post this FR up here. Sometimes you just get that smack in the face that you care too much. Learned a lesson by getting all worked up and being a butt hurt pussy for no reason. It's still one of my biggest weaknesses.
Do I care too much? That's the big question that's been rolling around in my mind the past little bit. The answer after rereading this and analyzing the night is obviously yes. So here's what happened Sunday. At 6:30 in the morning I was over at Rich's writing Saturday's FR. I decide I'm going to call the rich stunner to make a date. Now to put things in perspective. She's been falling off the radar. Not getting back to me for days on texts. Flaked on me for the last invite. Anyways, I call her up and she agrees to a date. Here's the text conversation that ensues.
Good evening..pumpkinbutt. Was thinking 8 tonight. Bring fireworks. <<---4:48
Wake up! <<---7:42
In my mind I'm thinking fuck this bitch I'm going to Jeffy style this shit and start berating her. So I took some time to think before I sent anything back. I tried to become a little more zen about it and step back from the situation. I starting thinking that no matter what I sent, if it was coming from a butthurt position it would be no good. Instead of calling her names and telling her she's like hitler playing a holocaust on my heart I went with this.
Fine! I'll go play lightbright with my friends. Go fuck yourself faggot <<---8:32 Think this sends the right message. Telling her to go fuck herself in a joking way. Rereading it tho it came off as a bit butthurt. Especially with the faggot comment at the end.
I say in my mind fuck this girl and decide I'm going to hit up the clubs. They're all open since Monday is a holiday in Canada. :D I get this message from her later on.
First of all, sorry my phone died! Second of all, me and Nikki are going to Hess tonight! <<--9:54
Now this is obviously bullshit for a couple reasons. a) She made plans with me already. b) She choose to make plans with someone else anyways. c) How can you make plans with other people when your phones dead ;D So, I'm pissed and trying to figure out a way to make her pay for this blatant retardation she's throwing at me.
Lmao it's cute when you act so stupid <---Comes off as playful like I don't care but calling her out on how stupid she's being at the same time
Wear a skirt so I can rip you into the bathroom and fuck you if we bump into each other <--Not telling her where I'll be but implying that I will be out tonight. The end goal here is to fuck her even though she's throwing all this bullshit at me.
I get this immediately back..
Shut up
10 minutes later
Rok bar?
Side bar :P
I start doing gymnastics in my head over what she meant as I drive down to Hess. My thought process is this. She read the part where I called her out and didn't like it. Reacts to it and tells me to shut up. Then later when she realizes I'm not responding to that she asks me where I'll be. In my mind this could mean one of two things. a) To know where I am going so she can avoid the socially awkward situation or b) to know where I am so she can get fucked like a lil slut in the bathroom. I don't respond to her at all. I couldn't come up with something to relay what I wanted and couldn't figure out what she meant. The bullshit gymnastics in my head are going like this. If she wanted to get fucked she would probably tell me where she's going to see if I would show up. On the flip end if she wanted to avoid me she would do just what she did and figure out where I was going. Among other various nonsense.
Anyways. I meet up with Ales and he tells me to stop thinking about the bullshit and just bang a new girl tonight. Like a true friend! We walk around and hit up two sets on the street. I can tell I'm off tonight due to all the gymnastics. It's really weird but when I'm trying to get something from a girl when talking to her I can feel it. It's so fucking weird like I can feel it in my body that I'm not giving her my pure focus. Hard to explain. I get blown out on the first and second set. Blown out because I'm not being super aggressive and they didn't see me as a sexual threat.
Next I get a call from the stunner. I ignore it and call her back 4 minutes later. Chat and find out she just pulled up and wants to know where I'm at. Say I'm around and see her walking down the street.
Grab her and we walk to go do shots at sidebar. Find out her grandfather died last Friday. That's fucked up. Switch off that topic and we have a few shots. She's all over me. Opps! condom falls out of my pocket. Funny because I fuck this girl raw since she's on BC. I just switch the topic and were good. We do our shots and head down to Rokbar. It's pretty damn dead...to be honest with you guys I'm thinking I need to switch venues until I move to Toronto. Rokbar's just not doing very well lately. Tonight is especially bad...there's 8 people in here at 12:45... Doesn't matter tho this girls obviously down. I pull her up to the rooftop and separate us from Ales and the friend. Throwing them pornstar moves on me. Luv a girl that knows how to shake her ass. I try to pull her downstairs to go for the bathroom sex but am having second thoughts...I'm being a really big pussy tonight.
We go downstairs and she dances on me while her and Ales talk. There's no one else here as everyone has left the club...1:00. lol While she's dancing all sexy on me I'm having a mental battle to pull her to the bathroom. Just a lot of bullshit about getting caught and other stuff that your brain will try to focus on when you're being a pussy. I man up and pull her outside first. Then we go down to the bathroom through another doorway. I did this so her friend wouldn't see us going down to the bathroom together and potentially stop us or follow along. Fun times ensue. I drag her into a stall, lift her off the ground, and start fucking her brains out while she's off the ground and pushed up against the wall. I make her suck my dick...her friend calls in the middle. It's hilarious because I see the name pop up on the bottom edge of her phone. The top is just hanging out of my pocket. I see her eyes look over while she's sucking away. I lift her up and bend her over against the toilet. Start pounding her from behind and finish on her back. We walk up the stairs just to catch Ales and her friend walking out.
We go back to Ales place..it's a mess. I let Ales do his thing while I walk around with the stunner. We play find the condom as he has condoms lying around in every room lol. I slam her on the guest bed and do just about everything you can imagine to her for the next 30 minutes. After we finish up we walk them to cab. It's 2:30...time for street game. :D
We approach around 16 girls but NOTHING sticks. My minds in the midst of a realization and I can't really focus. What I realized at the end of the night is I care way too much. Why should I give a fuck if this girl lies to me because she wants to go out with her friends. I obviously need to call her out on it..which I did but the gymnastics going on in my head all night made me an unattractive dude. So the question is what the fuck does it matter if girls lie and do stupid shit? Is there really a need for mental gymnastics?
Positives
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Laid
Great night with Ales
Lessons
-------
I care way too much
Do I care too much? That's the big question that's been rolling around in my mind the past little bit. The answer after rereading this and analyzing the night is obviously yes. So here's what happened Sunday. At 6:30 in the morning I was over at Rich's writing Saturday's FR. I decide I'm going to call the rich stunner to make a date. Now to put things in perspective. She's been falling off the radar. Not getting back to me for days on texts. Flaked on me for the last invite. Anyways, I call her up and she agrees to a date. Here's the text conversation that ensues.
Good evening..pumpkinbutt. Was thinking 8 tonight. Bring fireworks. <<---4:48
Wake up! <<---7:42
In my mind I'm thinking fuck this bitch I'm going to Jeffy style this shit and start berating her. So I took some time to think before I sent anything back. I tried to become a little more zen about it and step back from the situation. I starting thinking that no matter what I sent, if it was coming from a butthurt position it would be no good. Instead of calling her names and telling her she's like hitler playing a holocaust on my heart I went with this.
Fine! I'll go play lightbright with my friends. Go fuck yourself faggot <<---8:32 Think this sends the right message. Telling her to go fuck herself in a joking way. Rereading it tho it came off as a bit butthurt. Especially with the faggot comment at the end.
I say in my mind fuck this girl and decide I'm going to hit up the clubs. They're all open since Monday is a holiday in Canada. :D I get this message from her later on.
First of all, sorry my phone died! Second of all, me and Nikki are going to Hess tonight! <<--9:54
Now this is obviously bullshit for a couple reasons. a) She made plans with me already. b) She choose to make plans with someone else anyways. c) How can you make plans with other people when your phones dead ;D So, I'm pissed and trying to figure out a way to make her pay for this blatant retardation she's throwing at me.
Lmao it's cute when you act so stupid <---Comes off as playful like I don't care but calling her out on how stupid she's being at the same time
Wear a skirt so I can rip you into the bathroom and fuck you if we bump into each other <--Not telling her where I'll be but implying that I will be out tonight. The end goal here is to fuck her even though she's throwing all this bullshit at me.
I get this immediately back..
Shut up
10 minutes later
Rok bar?
Side bar :P
I start doing gymnastics in my head over what she meant as I drive down to Hess. My thought process is this. She read the part where I called her out and didn't like it. Reacts to it and tells me to shut up. Then later when she realizes I'm not responding to that she asks me where I'll be. In my mind this could mean one of two things. a) To know where I am going so she can avoid the socially awkward situation or b) to know where I am so she can get fucked like a lil slut in the bathroom. I don't respond to her at all. I couldn't come up with something to relay what I wanted and couldn't figure out what she meant. The bullshit gymnastics in my head are going like this. If she wanted to get fucked she would probably tell me where she's going to see if I would show up. On the flip end if she wanted to avoid me she would do just what she did and figure out where I was going. Among other various nonsense.
Anyways. I meet up with Ales and he tells me to stop thinking about the bullshit and just bang a new girl tonight. Like a true friend! We walk around and hit up two sets on the street. I can tell I'm off tonight due to all the gymnastics. It's really weird but when I'm trying to get something from a girl when talking to her I can feel it. It's so fucking weird like I can feel it in my body that I'm not giving her my pure focus. Hard to explain. I get blown out on the first and second set. Blown out because I'm not being super aggressive and they didn't see me as a sexual threat.
Next I get a call from the stunner. I ignore it and call her back 4 minutes later. Chat and find out she just pulled up and wants to know where I'm at. Say I'm around and see her walking down the street.
Grab her and we walk to go do shots at sidebar. Find out her grandfather died last Friday. That's fucked up. Switch off that topic and we have a few shots. She's all over me. Opps! condom falls out of my pocket. Funny because I fuck this girl raw since she's on BC. I just switch the topic and were good. We do our shots and head down to Rokbar. It's pretty damn dead...to be honest with you guys I'm thinking I need to switch venues until I move to Toronto. Rokbar's just not doing very well lately. Tonight is especially bad...there's 8 people in here at 12:45... Doesn't matter tho this girls obviously down. I pull her up to the rooftop and separate us from Ales and the friend. Throwing them pornstar moves on me. Luv a girl that knows how to shake her ass. I try to pull her downstairs to go for the bathroom sex but am having second thoughts...I'm being a really big pussy tonight.
We go downstairs and she dances on me while her and Ales talk. There's no one else here as everyone has left the club...1:00. lol While she's dancing all sexy on me I'm having a mental battle to pull her to the bathroom. Just a lot of bullshit about getting caught and other stuff that your brain will try to focus on when you're being a pussy. I man up and pull her outside first. Then we go down to the bathroom through another doorway. I did this so her friend wouldn't see us going down to the bathroom together and potentially stop us or follow along. Fun times ensue. I drag her into a stall, lift her off the ground, and start fucking her brains out while she's off the ground and pushed up against the wall. I make her suck my dick...her friend calls in the middle. It's hilarious because I see the name pop up on the bottom edge of her phone. The top is just hanging out of my pocket. I see her eyes look over while she's sucking away. I lift her up and bend her over against the toilet. Start pounding her from behind and finish on her back. We walk up the stairs just to catch Ales and her friend walking out.
We go back to Ales place..it's a mess. I let Ales do his thing while I walk around with the stunner. We play find the condom as he has condoms lying around in every room lol. I slam her on the guest bed and do just about everything you can imagine to her for the next 30 minutes. After we finish up we walk them to cab. It's 2:30...time for street game. :D
We approach around 16 girls but NOTHING sticks. My minds in the midst of a realization and I can't really focus. What I realized at the end of the night is I care way too much. Why should I give a fuck if this girl lies to me because she wants to go out with her friends. I obviously need to call her out on it..which I did but the gymnastics going on in my head all night made me an unattractive dude. So the question is what the fuck does it matter if girls lie and do stupid shit? Is there really a need for mental gymnastics?
Positives
---------
Laid
Great night with Ales
Lessons
-------
I care way too much
Tue, 05/22/2012 - 05:16
#1
Fuck yes.
Dude, I've never
Fuck yes.
Dude, I've never successfully had a bathroom pull. I hate you : )
I tried once and literally got into the stall with the girl. She had her pants down and the bouncer literally barges into the stall and screams at us to get out... Closest I ever came.
Dude, I've never successfully had a bathroom pull. I hate you : )
I tried once and literally got into the stall with the girl. She had her pants down and the bouncer literally barges into the stall and screams at us to get out... Closest I ever came.
Tue, 05/22/2012 - 06:08
#2
Holy shit manwhore attracts
Holy shit manwhore attracts guys from southern ontario to his forum like his honey covered dick attracts bar flies! I guess the hammer is kinda slow especially on weeknights ever since school is out? Thats a shame... hess is usually filled with poor naive collage girls and the only competition is a whole bunch of pussy ass nerds. As dirty and gross hess village is, it is fun to go out there every so often :)
anyways sweet post. I especially liked how you hit the streets after a sweet night. Good on you. Do you meditate and have a good diet? It'll help with that not being able to concentrate shhiittteee
anyways sweet post. I especially liked how you hit the streets after a sweet night. Good on you. Do you meditate and have a good diet? It'll help with that not being able to concentrate shhiittteee
Tue, 05/22/2012 - 09:44
#3
It's not about pulling to the
It's not about pulling to the bathroom. "Bathroom pulls" are a consequence of a guy getting the deed none, wherever he needs to, not necessarily some kind of trophy. Actually fucking in a bathroom can be disgusting lol.
I've had to get the job done in all KINDS of places.
I've had to get the job done in all KINDS of places.
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Tue, 05/22/2012 - 13:29
#4
buddhagames wrote:Fuck yes.
buddhagames wrote:
Fuck yes. Dude, I've never successfully had a bathroom pull. I hate you : ) I tried once and literally got into the stall with the girl. She had her pants down and the bouncer literally barges into the stall and screams at us to get out... Closest I ever came.
Just gotta know the venue. Most of the bouncers know me so they laugh and don't give a shit. They watched my first bathroom pull where I pulled my dick out in the hallway and wanted to e-mail it to me lol. Go security cams. ;/
Anyways...the riskiest one I've had is a full hand job on the dance floor..like bust on her dress hahaha. This chode kept staring so after while on my way to the bathroom I pat him on the back and say "The worst part about a handy on the dance floor is the cleanup" hahahaha
Tue, 05/22/2012 - 13:33
#5
icewahine wrote:Holy shit
icewahine wrote:
Holy shit manwhore attracts guys from southern ontario to his forum like his honey covered dick attracts bar flies! I guess the hammer is kinda slow especially on weeknights ever since school is out? Thats a shame... hess is usually filled with poor naive collage girls and the only competition is a whole bunch of pussy ass nerds. As dirty and gross hess village is, it is fun to go out there every so often :)
anyways sweet post. I especially liked how you hit the streets after a sweet night. Good on you. Do you meditate and have a good diet? It'll help with that not being able to concentrate shhiittteee
It's just Rokbar. The rest of Hess was bumping. You live around Hess? You should come out one night. We have around 4 of us out 3-4 nights a week beasting. I've been meditating for around 9 months now almost everyday. I recently bumped it up to 40 minutes. I also just switched my diet to completely take grains out. Nothing but meats and veggies.
Tue, 05/22/2012 - 13:39
#6
Download the audio book
Download the audio book Practicing the Power of Now by Tolle. NOT Power or Now, PRACTICING the Power of Now.
It's the meditative application of Tolle and it will forever change your life.
It's the meditative application of Tolle and it will forever change your life.
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- Autismus Terminus Finis (Root Cause/Cure of Autism Epidemic)
- Called Off My Wedding & Other Turn Tail Signs Of The American Male
Tue, 05/22/2012 - 13:43
#7
Manwhore wrote:Download the
Manwhore wrote:
Download the audio book Practicing the Power of Now by Tolle. NOT Power or Now, PRACTICING the Power of Now. It's the meditative application of Tolle and it will forever change your life.
Too late. ;P When I started investigating this shit a few weeks ago I read your stuff on listening to Tolle. I already have it on audio and started listening to it on the way home from work. To work is Roger Love's vocal power. I have noticed big changes in the way I can analyze how I feel. I imagine it's just a matter of time. I did JUST start the habit. So it may take a few months before I see true benefits. Great advice! The audio is cash money.