Developing my game while monogamous
I need to keep developing myself, without getting sexual with others. i still do the drills i learnt from manwang. but i havent' learnt things like keeping frame, screening a girl, being the prize, being my highest authorit, etc. I didn't apply myself nearly enough when i was being coached by manwhale, but now i'm off the market and have no interest in cheating because this girl is so special to me and this relationship is something i want to experience to the fullest. it will end someday and i'll be back into game, but until then, it's full steam on the love boat.
what i figure is this, still go out and cold approach, just limit my goals to leadership, friend making, social dominance, moving people, etc. I'm also getting into the military as an officer to develop myself on many levels and just to get the fuck out of the cubical. Getting there will take up until the start of next year at the earliest, so what other jobs overlap game? anymore kind of exercises/guidlines that work for non-sexual game? I can still develop my sexual game with her obviously.
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We worked on all that stuff constantly, you just had so many mental blocks from it. Keeping your frame and being your highest authority are some of the hallmarks of the training. This would be a good discussion I just don't have the time right now. A LOT of girls grow up being coddled in ways that most men would never dream of. That was you. You even invented mental problems so you could keep living in the bubble. Growing up with an overbearing dad who didn't expect anything from his daughter was obviously no help whatsoever, but at some point a person develops clarity to be able to see their way out of this and end it, stop putting the blame elsewhere. All of these are decisions YOU make.
Read these ASAP:
http://manwhore.org/forum/content/focus
http://www.proctorgallagherinstitute.com/tips-and-tools/decision-making
Didn't Bateh email you? Start work with him! What the FUCK are you waiting for you get presented with an opportunity and you still act like a pussy.
Thanks J. I appreciate what you're telling me.
I was going to come back to this for more discussion, but i gotta share this; i just had a big revelation about why im fucking up preparation for my army selection process. i'm subsciously self sabotaging, and i do this with almost everything. all i do is picture and feel my oncoming failure and unworthiness and it comes to pass. i finally saw what was happening. this is why nothing is really changing. it clicked only about 20 minutes ago.
I noticed that during the hypnosis audio, when the ideal me is meant to walk into to current me, it doesnt work because the doubt that was meant to leave my body to make room for the new me, wouldn't budge.
oh man, this is more intense than that time i forgot how to sit down.
Duh.
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I was going to come back to this for more discussion, but i gotta share this; i just had a big revelation about why im fucking up preparation for my army selection process. i'm subsciously self sabotaging, and i do this with almost everything. all i do is picture and feel my oncoming failure and unworthiness and it comes to pass. i finally saw what was happening. this is why nothing is really changing. it clicked only about 20 minutes ago.I noticed that during the hypnosis audio, when the ideal me is meant to walk into to current me, it doesnt work because the doubt that was meant to leave my body to make room for the new me, wouldn't budge.
Something similar used to happen to me. When I was visualizing my ideal self the mental image I saw was some faceless generic buff statue. AND I couldn't complete the merger between my body and the ideal. Its only been this time around (last few weeks) that I can visualize my actual face on a body that looks like mine but leaner and more muscular. Incidentally, I can also visualize better from the first person, seeing the merger and then becoming the radiant ideal myself, watching the light flow out of my body and skin.
In the past I could visualize walking down the stairs and into the room and then seeing the statue and then the statue glowing, and then I used to get super restless and want to jump up and tear the headphones off. The mental resistence to the important parts was causing me to self-sabotage.
When I resumed the self-hypnosis a few weeks ago this kind of resistance surfaced the first few times and I stopped fighting it and just accpeted that I was resisting. I let my mind wonder off and stopped trying to control what was going on. Over a few days of doing this, the resistence lessened to the point where the second it comes up I accept it and re-focus, and it fades. The other thing that popped up was itching/tickling feeling on different parts of my skin, but especially my face. I tried the same tact with this as I did with the mental resistance and it finally subsided last night.
Just keep accepting and re-focusing. If something is really strong, then don't fight it at all, let the feelings take their course, and then resume the visualization from where you left off.
Vision boards help with this. Print out some pictures of female officers standing tall and proud and visualize yourself in uniform, taking command of a formation and so on.