I Just Realized I Shit Test Girls
Though slightly different from how women use it.
I met up with this girl last night (http://manwhore.org/forum/content/girl-i-met-summer)
And I'm driving to my buddy's place after seeing her and I'm noticing myself having really strong feelings for her and even having thoughts like "yeah I would be down for not fucking other girls for a while if it made her feel safer about getting with me. Maybe even for a year". She's leaving in two weeks to her home town and a month from now leaving for Africa for a year. I realize this is silly.
It gets me thinking also why even though I have another girl who wants to see me who's fucking model level gorgeous, intelligent, classy, well educated, happy, nice, warm etc...I'm wondering why I haven't reached out to her in like 4-5 weeks and it feels like work reaching out to meet her. Or why I didn't even care about setting up a meetup while I was with her to meet up with a FB who lived a couple blocks down.
And this morning it hit me. Basically without realizing, game was my shit test. I mean my conscious intention was to basically get laid but as she stayed congruent with how she presented herself to be I gained more respect for her, she became more credible and I became more attracted to her because I started to see she was authentic and thus higher value than most girls.
When I met her I was in this really high level of being present, not giving a fuck, being bold, flowing, self-amused. And she tested me *hard*. The way I was gaming her too I was provoking the shit tests and actually using it as a way to have fun and amuse myself with it. If I hadn't been at that level I would have for sure gotten blown out. I'm also pretty sure this is the reason why she and another girl met up with me like a year after our initial interaction.
She told me she hadn't had sex in 9 months and I realized she was legit when I tried to sleep with her. But the fact she didn't put out wasn't what attracted me to her, it was the reason why she didn't have sex. It was the same reason she's at a top school on scholarship getting her masters. It's the reason she got chosen out of over 200 people to go on a one year paid internship in Africa helping people there develop a health care system. It's because she has a clear idea of what she wants and she stays true to her standards and follows her own rhythm.
To me, what I'm seeing now that turns me off on a certain level is that most women are fickle and are followers, it's just weak and unattractive. Not something you could trust on a more intimate level. Not repelant enough to not want to sleep with them, but repelant enough to not have much more interest beyond sex and a casual friendship.
I realized the reason I'm more attracted to her was because I shit tested her/provoked the shit test and she remain congruent with how she presented herself to be all throughout the interaction. And the other physically hotter girl while I was being basically the same way with her, I haven't tested her anywhere near as much to see how congruent she is to how she presents herself to be to probably be more interested in her.
Just wanted to share because I've seen how oblivious women are to shit testing and wondered if there was a male counterpart of this that I wasn't aware of.
Gay guys shit test a lot too.
I go in and I'm crisp, clean and my vocals are fucking coming out like music. - Anonymous MW student
- Autismus Terminus Finis (Root Cause/Cure of Autism Epidemic)
- Called Off My Wedding & Other Turn Tail Signs Of The American Male
lol. Yeah it's pretty much only women and gay guys that give people shit, good point.
To a certain degree you are rationalizing your actions, her actions, and your results. Yes you made a decent point but that is NOT the whole truth by any means.
I go in and I'm crisp, clean and my vocals are fucking coming out like music. - Anonymous MW student
- Autismus Terminus Finis (Root Cause/Cure of Autism Epidemic)
- Called Off My Wedding & Other Turn Tail Signs Of The American Male
To a certain degree you are rationalizing your actions, her actions, and your results. Yes you made a decent point but that is NOT the whole truth by any means.
I feel like this is MW saying you should have fucked her the first night.
To a certain degree you are rationalizing your actions, her actions, and your results. Yes you made a decent point but that is NOT the whole truth by any means.
Agreed, if I had better game I would have fucked her, prob not the first night though.
But the point of this post wasn't to rationalize the results, I'm aware there's tons of room for improvement.
What I'm saying is that I saw that in the process of seeing how she responded to me operating at an extremely high level of entitlement, confidence, boldness I saw a consistency/congruence and it made me more attracted to her. I would do shit knowing it would provoke a shit test, or say some high risk stuff that I thought was hilarious and seeing how well she took it.
Consciously I was just basically gaming myself/her and trying to get laid. But looking back in particular I was really attracted to this girl because doing all of that allowed me to also see how she responded and see that there was a congruence indicative of someone with high standards across the board in life, high self-discipline and a strong and clear commitment to a higher purpose in her life.
I found it interesting because I had always seen that women do this and it's unconscious and it's how they screen out guys who aren't sexworthy. I had always had it presented as if women only do this. But I saw that in being really bold, entitled, and doing things for self-amusement to push the envelope and game her it also without realizing presented lots of opportunities that could be seen as a congruence tests. Basically I'm thinking maybe girls screen out guys who aren't sex worthy whereas guys still want to spread the seed but are unconsciously screening out girls who are only sex worthy from the ones who unconsciously they see as pair-bonding material.
Thought it might be an interesting point for personal self-reflection and for anyone else who finds themselves really attracted to a particular girl cause it had never occurred to me before.
Yes men should obviously be screening as well.
I'm not saying you want to bang every girl the first night, but it is a decent place to aim for, you can't go wrong with that ;)
I go in and I'm crisp, clean and my vocals are fucking coming out like music. - Anonymous MW student
- Autismus Terminus Finis (Root Cause/Cure of Autism Epidemic)
- Called Off My Wedding & Other Turn Tail Signs Of The American Male